Won't be long now

Yesterday was my breaking point! I had been out of my medication for almost a whole week! Every little thing was on my mind. Brenda asked me if I was ok and I broke down crying. "I just want my house to be done already. Right when we get one thing done, something else happens. I don't want to have to pay rent for two places this month, I can't afford it. Plus all the money I'm putting into this house. James moved in with us. I feel guilty, what will Zac think? He moves in with his dad, then I move some other kid in. I feel like a horrible mom! And I'm out of medication."

haha. Yep, that's pretty much how it went down. Today was a slow day at work, so Brenda offered to open for me, let me have the day off.
When I got off yesterday, I went straight to pick up my Prozac, then to Lowe's to buy the paint for my kitchen. Then I went and got started painting.
I stayed until about 8:00 and got just the trim done. I never realized how freaking long and tedious this job was!!

This morning, I woke up and headed straight to the house. I got the kitchen painted! I put the second coat of paint on Gage's room. Went with my mom to pick out some carpet for the living room, when she got off work.
Then boys (Gage and James) came over after school and ripped up the nasty, cat/dog pee carpet and padding in the living room and my room.
de.scuss.ting.
I feel so much better with medication in my system and everything we got done today!!
Saturday, the carpet man is coming to lay the carpet...woot woot!!

Back story re: James. Jauque (my friend since 5th grade) moved to Pennsylvania last year and decided she wanted to move back. Just so happens, I'm moving out of my place......so, she's moving in. I just didn't know how long my house is going to end up taking, so James came to live with us until his family makes it back. He wanted to get enrolled in school with Gage and not be too far behind. So, he came Saturday.'
He's like my son anyways. I was there the day he was born. He and Gage grew up together, only 3 months apart. They're bff's. haha. So, they're loving this, of course.
I'm loving it, just because I missed him so much while he was gone. He came to visit this summer and I didn't see him as much as I would've liked.

So, there's that.
Now, wanna see some pictures of my house progress so far?????
I'm super excited.
Please keep in mind....my favorite color IS green. So, maybe I went a little overboard on the green?

This is my room. You can't really tell the color, but it's Botanical something or other. I just thought it would be pretty with the red wood trim.


Today, when the boys ripped up the carpet, we discovered this beautiful hard wood floor!!!
WHY would anyone cover this with carpet?? I don't understand. I was hoping that we could buff it and stain it, but my step dad said it's just laying on the wood...whatever, planks? I don't know. Anyways, he said it's so dusty because it's just ground underneath. He said if he went under the house with a flashlight, I'd be able to see it through the cracks in the wood. :(
So, I'm going tomorrow after I pick up Zac from school to pick out some carpet for my room. Which was my original plan anyways......but I really love that old hard wood floor!


This is Gage's room. Nautical Blue. He said he wanted something "chill". It turned out to be prettier than I thought it would. He's ready to get his carpet down too, so we can start moving his stuff in!


This is my FAVORITE! My kitchen that I painted all by myself!!! First time I have ever painted a room, with no help.
Which explains the paint on the trim and ceiling...that you may or may not be able to see!!
All I have to do now is paint the trim, wash the floor and cabinets again, get my new stove and fridge in.......and it'll be ready to go!!


I know some people don't like green. But I absolutely love the color!! My mom is getting frustrated with my "old school" look. But I love the old brown paneling in the living room....which you can see to the right.

I'm so excited because we are getting so close!!!

Paint all the trim
Paint the laundry area and put new tiles down
Carpet in the living room, my room, and Gage's room
Paint the entry area
Paint my bathroom and Gage's bathroom
I think that's about it. And we'll be ready to move in!

Then I'll be ready to get busy in the garage....working on my art area/Gage's hang out.

So close......yet so far!!

Blah, blah, house, blah

I should be in bed.

Ok, I am in bed.

I should be sleeping.

Tired.

I'm so mentally & physically drained right now.

10 hour work week this week?!? Ugh. Then working on THE house!

Errr'day, errr'day.

Vacation?

I swear I'm in a movie right now.

The movie "Money Pit".

But where's my sexy, funny Tom Hanks????

Missing:

Laughter.

Update on my house:

My room, complete.

My bathroom, not even close.

Gage's room, complete, (minus carpet, should be laid this weekend)

Gage's bathroom, need to paint.

Back entry area, need to paint.

Laundry room, need to paint, replace some tiles.

Living room, complete, (minus carpet...also hopefully done this weekend.)

Kitchen, need to paint the walls.

I'm starting that tomorrow! As soon as I go buy the over-priced, but perfect colored paint that I want.

Stress.

Will we ever finish this house?

Will I ever move in?

Will I ever enjoy a weekend of going to garage sales, estate sales, antique stores, and the flea market EVER AGAIN?!?!?

Oh, will I, trustworthy magic 8 ball of Zac's..... Tell me my future!!!

Outlook foggy. Try again later.

Shit.

yep, that sounds about right.

I'm almost to the point of tears. Then laughter at the madness that shows itself right when we think we're getting close!!

Money Pit, I'm telling you!! I need my Tom Hanks. Tom hanks makes everything better. :)

p.s.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow. :/

i.want.to.MOVE.dammit!!!!

RE: Creepster

Yesterday I had to MAKE myself go tell the land lord that it may still be a couple weeks before

my house is ready. I just wanted to know if we could pro rate the rent or whatever.

I'm not going to go into details of everything that was said.

I just wanted to share a text message conversation that my sister & I had about the situation.

August 29th 7:31 p.m.

Me: Went to the landlord to ask about paying rent for just two weeks, since the house is taking longer to get ready than expected. He opened his door & said,"Hey, Stephanie! Come on in!" I was like HELL NO, I'm not coming in! Haha. I didn't SAY it like that, but I thought it.

August 30th 5:21 a.m. (I'm driving to work)

Leah: why didn't you go in? He could've sat you down, got you a nice, cold, refreshing, lightly drug-laced drink. Then sat you down & slowly untied your shoes, very gently tugging your socks off. He'd ask you if that felt good. He's been wanting to do this since the day you moved in. "Would you like a light, gentle foot massage?" Then he'd put your foot real snug into his crotch & slowly, but firmly, begin to rub your cares away. He'd go get you some ripe, fresh, sweet, juicy fruit. Before he'd pop piece into your mouth, he'd lightly rub some of the fruits sweet juice on your lips & it would dribble down your chin. He'd say,"Oh, Stephanie! I'm so sorry! I made such a mess! Let me clean that off for you", as he cleaned it with his gummy, bacteria-coated tongue jutting out of his mouth.........Sorry to leave you hanging on the edge of your seat, but I gotta get kids ready for school. Tune in later for..."the rest of the story".

5:31 a.m.

Me: you're a sick bitch. Do NOT send "the rest of the story"! I think I just threw up in my mouth a little.

11:51 a.m.

Me: I let Bren & Misti read your text. They were laughing so hard. Bren thought it was hilarious. Misti was totally grossed out. Haha.

1:13 p.m.

Leah: I'm not sure...but I think that may have been my masterpiece :)

Me: I believe so

Leah: I just re-read it & started laughing again so hard, my eyes are watering. That's just too good!

Me: Get over yourself & your twisted mind.

I do believe my sister needs to either stick with the Stephen King novels or the raunchy romance novels. Reading both has made her a bit disturbing.

THIS is the concern I get from my family when a psycho landlord talks about locking me in my house & chaining me up.

I feel so loved and safe.

Did I mention my sister is one sick bitch????

In a Perfect World

Imagine there's no heaven.
It's easy if you try.
No hell below us.
Above us only sky.
Imagine all the people living for today.
Imagine there's no countries.
It isn't hard to do.
Nothing to kill or die for.
And no religion too.
Imagine all the people living life in peace.
You, you may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope some day you'll join us.
And the world will be as one.
Imagine no possessions.
I wonder if you can.
No need for greed or hunger.
A brotherhood of man.
Imagine all the people sharing all the world.
You, you may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
I hope some day you'll join us.
And the world will live as one.

My sister called me this morning to tell me about Jack's first two days of school.
She said when she picked up Jack from school, he was so excited to tell her about what a great day he had.
He said he made a new friend and they had so much fun playing!!
Leah asked him what his friend's name was and he said,"I don't know."

Tuesday, she picks him up from school. He goes on and on about his new friend and again....how much fun they had together.

Leah: So, what's his name?
Jack: I don't know.
Leah: How come you don't his name yet?
Jack: Cause I can't understand him.
Leah: Why not?
Jack: I don't know. I just can't. He don't talk like me.
Leah: What does he look like?
Jack: Umm, he has brown hair and brown skin and him has silver teeth.

haha. Apparently Jack's new best friend is Mexican and has yet to learn English.
Leah asked him how they play if they can't communicate. He says they just point and wave to each other, or pat the seat next to them to let them know they want to sit by each other. And.....they just play.

I thought that was the sweetest thing ever.
It made me remember being a kid.

Color, looks, clothes, cleanliness, money....nothing mattered at that age.
All you cared about was having friends. Whether you could understand them or not....or had anything in common, really at all. Just as long as you can play....we'll be friends.

What a wonderful world this would be, if adults still had that mentality!
To overlook race.
To overlook class.
To overlook all the things that don't really matter, and just see that the person in front of you is just that......a person. Someone you can get along with, if you just make the effort. No matter how opposite you are. We are all made in God's image. We are all just flesh and blood. With feelings, problems, family, love, insecurities, wants and needs.
We are all the same.

Take a look at kindergartner's while playing. How they interact with each other.
No fear of rejection.
No fear of being judged.
They just want to play. Make friends. Have fun.

If only we all had the perspective of my 5 year old nephew.

He's my hero. :)

Labor Day Weekend

I've gone over to work on THE house pretty much everyday for the past two weeks.

I still cannot describe the mess that was left behind.

We've gotten so much done, but there's still so much to do before we can move in.

This weekend the roofers came and put on a new roof. Woot, woot!!

I've cleaned and scrubbed and used so much bleach, that when I put my finger on the finger pad at work to clock in, it can't identify me! Brenda's been putting my time in manually! Ridiculous.

We painted most of the walls with kiltz and the ceilings too.

The living room and my room have old school brown panelling. I love the dark paneling in the living room, so I'm keeping it. (brings back childhood memories, which makes me happy).

But the paneling in my room is the light blond color....dislike. So we had to kiltz the entire room, except for the dark redwood frame and doors. Because I love those too. I'm loving the old school-ness of it all, but cleaner. So, I just have to figure out what paint will look best with the frame. I'm thinking khaki, a light sandy color....

We've ripped up the carpet & padding in Gage's room and scrubbed the concrete below. Yes, scrubbed concrete....from the urine of the 2 dogs and one cat that the previous people had. We've put a sealant on the concrete. He already has his carpet and paint picked out. He want his room navy blue..."just something chill, mom". Ok, whatever....it's your room.

I didn't work on the house today (it was my day to pick up zac & I tortured him enough this weekend having to go with me to work on the house), but my mom and step dad went over to fix the toilet in my restroom. It wasn't bolted to the floor. It worked, but it was set. Ridiculous.

OF COURSE, while they were there, they noticed another leak in Gage's room and the entry area by his room.

Mike think it's the air conditioning unit, so he's going back tomorrow to see if he can fix that.

I'm going to go & kiltz my bathroom and the rest of Gage's room...or what I can before heading home to shower & get ready for work the next day.

I'm hoping this 3 day, Labor Day weekend, will really get things rolling. I'm hoping to paint and get the carpet laid.

I have to buy a new fridge because the nasty one they had....that I spent over an hour cleaning, doesn't get cold. It just gets cool. Like, put a hot coke in the fridge, then an hour later, the can is cool. My cans were still "cool" the following day.

I need to buy a new stove. This house has a gas stove & I'm hoping I can put an electric one in.

I've recently been teaching Zac how to use the stove and I'm scared for him to try the gas stove. Especially out of my sight.

The pantry area was turned into a laundry area.....so I'm also looking for the apartment size stacking washer/dryer. That way we can set up some shelves and whatnot. Just to have some extra space.

I think my garage is bigger than my house. And I'm still almost more excited about it.

I can't wait to get my art stuff out and organized the way I want it!!

Anyways, I know people are so tired of hearing about the house. Believe me, I'm tired of thinking, talking about, and working on it.

I just didn't realize how time consuming it was going to be!

I'm just thankful for an awesome step dad who can do everything. He's amazing and never complains. Whether I'm asking him to fix the garage door that off track, or the back door that swings open unless locked, to the taping and bedding of all the parts of the house falling apart.

He never complains. And he has Gage right there by his side, showing him how do it all. I'm glad Gage has him in his life.

And I'm thankful that my mom is helping....and I have someone to complain with :)

Because we have been known to complain a time or two. Believe it or not :)

So, our goal is to have us all moved in by the weekend AFTER Labor Day weekend.

Wish.us.luck.weneedit.