The Ross Family.

My uncle Boo (Forrest), Aunt Teeter (Cindy), My dad (Steve Al), and Aunt Brenda.




My dad's family.

Back row; Dustin (Leah's husband), Jack, Leah, my dad, my dad's wife, my brother Taylor, me, and Gage.
Bottom; Zac and Lucia



My Aunt Teeter's family.

Teeter, Jack, Alexis, Chasty, Kevin, Ryan, Carrie holding Ava, Jorge
then Kolby and Annabel



My Uncle Boo's family

Natalie, Jeff, Boo, and Linda



My Aunt Brenda's family

Ashley, Phil, Abby, Brenda, Ross
then Bailey and Hannah



All the cousins!
We were all so close when we were younger.



All the cousin's kids. :)
That's my fam. At the Ross Family Christmas this year.

It has been years since we've all been together for Christmas!

Before we ate lunch, my Uncle Jack said a prayer. Then Lucia said a prayer.
Then my aunt Linda said she wanted to say a few words.
She said,"I just want to say...if I can without crying"...then she teared up and started crying. She said."I am so thankful that the younger generation got us all together again, after so many years. It's so great to be all together again" I can't remember everything else she said because I started crying along with everyone else. It was sweet. And Leah told them all that they are always welcome in her home anytime.
I hope we all get to get together again soon.

My son....

I guess when boys reach a certain age, they just get more retarded than they already are. Before Christmas I asked Gage what he wanted for Christmas. He said he wanted a wheelchair. I'm like...you're kidding, right? He says, nooo. It's fun to play around in them. Ok, NO wheelchairs! You ruhtard!! THEN he and my cousin's kids all want to go to Academy. Gage got some gift cards from there and they were burnin' a hole in his pocket! So I took all three boys and one girl to Academy. I waited in the car, because they were taking too long. Finally after being in the car for 45 minutes, I texted Gage and told him to wrap it up! They all came to the car....empty handed. Then they were like....can we go to Wal Mart??? Which I think all of them had gift cards to there. I said the only way I would take them was if I could drop them off and they could convince one of the many people at my sister's house to come pick them up. So, Leah agrees to pick them up later. Then Gage calls and asks if I would give him $20 for his $25 gift card to Wal Mart. Sorry, bud...I have no cash. So, then he texts Leah and asks her the same thing, because he found something at PetSmart he wanted to buy. Wait....I thought you were at Wal Mart?? Ok, they walked over to PetSmart. I asked him what he was going to buy our dog at PetSmart. No, he wants to buy his girlfriend a necklace. At PetSmart? I joke with my cousins that he's going to buy his girlfriend a dog tag! haha. Leah picks them all up....what did my son do? He bought his girlfriend a dog tag.......yeah. Wow. It says,"I love you -Gage" haha. Kinda sweet. Really corny. I'm sure there was something better than that he could find, right? What a dork!! Monday night, Gage stayed the night with his friend Casey. He came home last night...guess how he entered my room....where I was layed up in bed, reading..... YES! He came strolling in...in a wheelchair!!! Whaaat? His friend Casey had one that he used to play on, but he got a golf cart, so he gave Gage his wheelchair. Seriously? Why is my son....and his friends...such dorks? p.s. Pictures of Christmas Party at my sister's to come...along with the story bragging on how well I did with my step mom. I KILLED HER...,.with kindness. Go, me!

Tis the season.....

Gotta loooove Christmas time!
So, part of Zac's therapy is learning to be alone without freaking out. Like, at bedtime. He starts getting scared, being in his room by himself, in the dark. The doctor said he needs to lay there and focus on clearing his mind, calming it so he can fall asleep.
Well, he told me he was ready for bed at 7 last night! I let him lay down at 8 and watch tv for a bit....or until he fell asleep. He came in my room at 10:30, crying, saying,"I can't calm my mind! I'm trying, but I keep thinking about Santa coming. I can't fall asleep and he's not going to come!!"



So, I made Gage lay down with Zac until Zac fell asleep. Gage said he was immediately out. haha. Poor guy.

I was up until about 11:30 watching my True Blood my mom bought me!! Woot, woot!! Seasons one AND two!!! Love it!!



Then I checked to make sure the kids were asleep, and Santa put the presents out.
Theeeen, Zac came running in my room at 6:15 yelling,"Mom, Santa came!! Santa came!"
I was like....cool, let's sleep some more then check it out. haha.
Not happening. He went and woke Gage up, I had to drag myself outta bed and watch them be all excited about the things Santa brought for them.
Gage said,"Wow, Mom....Santa gave me all the Jackass movies." I said,"Heck yeah, Santa's down, yo." haha.
So after all the ooohing and ahhing, I went back to bed at 8:30 and woke up at 9:30 to Beauty laying in bed next to me, licking me. haha. Sweet girl. :)
Now we're at my sister's house, chilling with them. My aunt Brenda and cousin Ashley came in town last night.

Yesterday, we did Christmas at my mom's. Here are a few more pics. :)

The three sister's; keeping it real, yo.
(We like peace signs and put trouts..a lot! haha.)

The normal picture of us. :)

My mom and Mike; keeping it real. haha. They're so cool!!

Mom and Mike with all their grandkids!

Zac and Lucia.

Me and my sister's kiddos; keepin' it real!! What did I tell you...we like to keep it real!

Awww, cute normal picture of the kiddos!

Gavin and Jack!! Two little cutie pies.

My boy, Gage.

The mom's with their kids.

I can't seem to part with the True Blood dvds.

Goofy face time.

Ohhh, how I love Christmas time and family time!! It's the best!! :)

So long, Scar.

Did you hear the news?
My boyfriend, Ryan, finally came to his senses.


Yes, he filed for divorce from the overly-exaggerated "hot" Scarlet.

There's something about her that I don't like. Her nose? Her voice? Her marriage to Ryan? haha. I'm not really a fan of her in anything she's been in...

But I do love Ryan in pretty much EVERYTHING he's been in!! Hottie.

Happy Eve of Christmas Eve!!

I'm so excited for Christmas, just because I get to see all of my dad's side of the family this year! It's been a long time since we have all been together. Plus I'm excited to have a 4 day weekend!! Woot woot!
Plus I had yesterday off! Me and Zac stayed the night at Leah's Tuesday night. Wednesday morning, we picked up Gage from his sister's. Then me and Leah had lunch with my cousin Lauren at yummy Casa Manana!! It's always nice to catch up with family! :)
Today was Zac's first therapy session. His dad took him at 2 and I met up with them when I got off work around 2:20. They were in an office talking, so I just went in there and we went over a goal list the doc had made up for him. Then they had their session. I think it went pretty good. :)
Tomorrow we're going to my mom's for Christmas. Then home to get ready for ole Saint Nick!!
My aunt Brenda and cousin Ashley are coming in town tomorrow, too! I can't wait to hang out with them! :)
I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!!!! :)

By the way....did you know it's been 96 days since my last cigarette? Heck yeah, baby!
Although I have a feeling this Christmas weekend is going to be tough on me, since like 90% of my fam smokes!! :/
Wish me luck!

4 Days until Christmas...whaaa whaaa?

I'm at my sister's, watching Legion, listening to her and Adrien scream like little girls. haha.
I love this movie.

We went to eat at Jalapeno Tree....Lucia's reward for picking up the most dog poop. Then we went and got some wine. All six kids are in the back playing while we watch this good movie! :)

I love having days off during the week!

I'm off tomorrow. So, me and Zac are staying the night at Leah's tonight. We'll get up early and go get pick up Gage from his sister's.

Then have lunch with my cousin (in law).

Then the boys are going to open presents!

Zac will be at his dad's Thursday night and til noon on Christmas Eve, then to mom's. So, I'm letting the boys open presents early and together tomorrow. They're super excited! :)

Zac's dad didn't know where to go for Zac's appointment on Saturday, so it was rescheduled to Thursday. Sooo, he'll have his first therapy session Thursday at 2!

I have to work Thursday, but then I'll be off Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday!!

Awesome!!

Man, I'm tired. I think I'm gonna finish up this movie and head off to bed! Good night, my peeps!

Just another Crappy Monday. Wish it was a Wedneday (cause I'll be off)

Why can I not just live in peace? It seems that everywhere I live, I have weirdo neighbors. I had the stalker girl at my apartments. The creepy guy at my last house, and noooow a bitter, angry, dog-hating lesbian. Not that there is anything wrong with lesbians. Really, I don't have a problem with them. It's just this lady is crazy.
First, Beauty gets out of the backyard. She busted through my weak privacy fence. Apparently she went into the neighbors yard.
So, she was complaining. I told her my step dad said he would fix the fence, or put a hot wire up, so she won't get out when we're not home anymore. This was on Thursday, I believe. Friday, she called the county sheriff's department. Sunday the sheriff comes out and meets Beauty, asks me if I'm capable of caring for her. I was like, well...yeah. He said, "She doesn't look like she's starving to me." I said, "Yeah, because she's not." He said that my neighbor has been calling everday, non stop since Friday, telling them I don't care for my dog. I don't feed her, I don't give her water, blah blah blah. She actually wrote me and said she wouldn't doubt it if Beauty hasn't had her shots!!! What the eff ever!! Stupid bitch.
Anyways, the sheriff laughed and said she was blowing things out of proportion. He could tell that Beauty was taken care of. UGH!!!
WHY DO I HAVE NEIGHBORS LIKE THIS?!?!


not.
psycho.

All I have done the past few years is try to stay out of the drama, and it's like it finds me. Why? I don't like it. I just want to live. Chill with my boys and my dog, and just be. Just let me be.
My sister says my neighbor needs a shot of penis-cillin.

I concur.

There's a lot more to this story, but I'm tired of thinking about it. She's driving me insane!!


My step dad is still coming to fix my fence. So, we had to pick up dog doodie today. Gage was supposed to do it before he went to his "sister's" and of course, he didn't. So, I told Lucia and Zac that we were all gonna get a bag and pick up poop. Whoever picked up the most poop got to choose where we eat dinner tonight. I'd take them anywhere they wanted to go.
I thought for sure I would win, since I'm an adult....but fate stepped in. I was still wearing my scrubs and I bent at the knees, something must've been on my leg, because it stung me!! And it still hurts. I don't know if it was a bee or a scorpion or a spider?? I don't know and I'm freaking out, because it's red and swollen and still hurts. :I( *tear* It could've been a scorpion because it's freaking 80-something degrees outside! 5 days before Christmas and it's in the 80's! Not that I'm complaining, I love the warm weather....unless it was a scorpion. ugh.
Anyways....I had to run inside and strip my clothes off to see what stung me and Lucia caught up to me. She won the poop battle. And of course, she picks a place I really don't like...the Jalapeno Tree. Ewww. I want some Casa Manana!!!
Oh well, a deal's a deal. :\
Peace out, yo.

Fat Booth!

My sister got a new app on her iPhone. Fat Booth. And let me tell you, we had some fun with it last night!! We went to eat at El Chico's and I could not stop taking pictures of everyone and making them fat! It was so fun.

Of course, I had to share the pics........

Here's me...Marianne, if my face ever gets THIS fat, tell me to stop eating Hot Fries and drinking Dr Peppers! haha.

Gage..his was taken in the car. Too funny!!

Zac was loving this! He took his picture a few times.

Lucia took hers at home. Ewwwww. haha. This one cracked me up!!

But not as much as this one. Man, Jack is so stinkin' cute!! haha. I love this kid!

I think Jack looks like "Lard Ass" from the movie "Stand By Me". hahahaha.

Here's the 4-1-1 on my boy :)

So, we had Zac's appointment yesterday. The doctor says he definitely has high anxiety....hmmm, I wonder where he gets that from! He is ADHD. She says she is saying it is probable that he has Aspergers. But she wants to do further testing on that before saying for sure.

We're going to start therapy for the anxiety (and also self esteem type issues...hmm, wonder where he gets that...I guess he is his mother's son) and then also 6 weeks of group classes with other kids with the same problem. His first therapy session is this Saturday.

Then in February, has an appointment to see about trying different medications, either for the anxiety...that may also help with the ADHD, or medicine for the ADHD, that may also help with the anxiety. She says one may be causing the other. Soooo, we shall see.

I was a mess yesterday. I couldn't help but think the confidence in himself was my fault. Maybe I didn't praise him enough? Maybe I wasn't the mother I should have been, especially going through the divorce and seperation from his dad. I went a little crazy and started going out all the time. Maybe I neglected him?

I don't know, but of course, being a parent, you can't help but blame yourself.

I guess I'm just glad that we're figuring out what's going on, so we help him out.....and me! Because believe me, a child with ADHD, anxiety, and possibly Aspergers is quite a handful sometimes. :)

But I thank all my friends and family for the support I've been given :) I would have lost it by now, if not for them. Especially my sister, who goes to the appointments with me. She made me feel better yesterday when I went through my bawling and self blaming game.

More appointments....ugh.

Ok, I had to make an appointment with my doctor. I think it's ridiculous that I can't have something on my mind without my heart flip-flopping around and having that tight chest feeling. It's ridiculous.

So, today's anxiety attack is brought to you by: Zac's follow up appointment. I'm leaving work in about 15 minutes to get Zac's test results.

Of course, my sister is going with me. I'm emotionally challenged and apparently can't do anything by myself these days without having panic attacks or nervous break downs.

I don't understand. I used to be so patient, so calm about everything. No worries.

Well, of course I had worries, but they never caused such a reaction as I get now.

Ridiculous.

So, anywayssssssss, as nervous as I am, I'm ready to get Zac's results today! :)

Oh, and only 9 more days until Christmas?!?!!? What the heck is that??? Santa needs to get on the ball and get some gifts for my boys!! :)

Wee Bit Wednesday

Want to play along? Link up here! :) {one} did you buy a christmas tree this year?Nope, I bought a sad excuse of a tree last year at the Dollar General. haha. I call it our "Charlie Brown" Christmas tree!
{two} what is your favorite holiday tradition?Just getting together with the family on Christmas Eve.
{three} do you open your gifts on christmas eve or christmas day?Christmas Eve. Christmas Day is for Santa.
{four} at what age did you stop believing in santa claus?I never believed.
{five} do you fill stockings?I do. I bought about $50 worth of stocking stuffers yesterday! Candy, toys, beef jerky. haha. All the good stuff they love.
{six} handmade presents or store bought presents?I do both.
{seven} do you have a favorite christmas meal?Nope. As long as I don't have to cook it. :)
{eight} is your christmas tree real or artificial?Fake! I love the smell of a real Christmas tree! But having to water it and vaccuum the pine needles! ugh. No thanks.
{nine} what is your favorite christmas song?Rudolph. Lame, I know. But I can't help but sing along everytime I hear it!
{ten} did you send out christmas cards this year?I surely did. Every year. :)

Secret Santa!

I am in the Christmas spirit! I'm one ugly Christmas sweater away from being the old women I make fun of!! haha.

I'm wearing TWO santa pins today.

These cute little berets. I have my hair in pig tails today and each pig tail has these cute little clips.

All thanks to my Secret Santa here at work! :)

I'm also wearing the cute little bell bracelet that is pictured below with my lotion and chap stick. :)

Notice the Hot Fries in the background. That's my breaksfast every morning. My secret santa was nice enough to get me a couple bags of those too! haha.

I also got this book and cute cross book marker!!

A couple of cute ornaments! I just love ornaments!

A close up of my berets. :)

Help me, help me!!!

So, last Friday I was watching "Last House on the Left"...the new one. Have you seen it? It's pretty.....uh, disturbing. I may have blogged about it before, I'm not sure.

Anyways, Gage was at his friend Travis's house and Zac was with his dad.

It's almost 9:00 p.m., I'm watching Last House on the Left and decorating Christmas packages, and I hear a knock on my door! Whaaaat? Who could possibly be knocking at my door?

I live out in the middle of nowhere. It's dark. Beauty is in the backyard, barking.

I never have anyone just show up at my house, especially at that hour. Yes, I'm lame, everyone who knows me knows I go to bed super early!!

I slowly open the door and the first thing I see is a cop car.

Then I see a HUGE police officer. He was kinda scary looking. He has tattoos all over and one tattoo that stood out was the spiderweb on the elbow tattoo.

And I think.....one of my ex-boyfriends and his friends had that tattoo!

It's a trick! It's someone pretending to be a police officer, he's going to come through my door and...and....well, there's no telling what!!! And he could even really BE a cop...but a bad cop! I can only imagine! I watch Snapped! I watch Forensic Files! I watch Cold Case Files! I watch all those shows...I know being out in the middle of nowhere all alone...it's just something horrible waiting to happen!

So, he turns around as I'm opening the door and in his hand he has.....

wait for it

wait for it

wait for it.......

Court papers for my child support. Yes. I get to go to court AGAIN for the $22,000 Gage owes me for child support. He will not be there. What's the point in me going?

Of all the things I imagined that could happen to me....I never thought it would be that horrible!! haha.

just kidding.

But I did get scared when I heard the knock on the door!!

fill in the blank FRIDAY!!!

Want to play along? Link up here!

1. I wish I could win the lottery...and never have to work again. :)

2. Yesterday I worked, picked up the kids, went to Mardel's & Hastings, picked up Jack from daycare, went to my sisters, then we all went to eat at nasty CiCi's Pizza....went home, got the kids showers and what not...went to bed!

3. Today I will be happy that it's Friday! Pick up my kids after school, do some house cleaning...then take the kids to look at Christmas lights.

4. Tomorrow I will do laundry all freaking day, I'm sure! Play with the puppies. Watch some movies....probably "Eclipse". :)

5. Maybe cook dinner???

6. Someday I'll have it all figured out......maybe.

7. I love my boys, my family, my friends, reading, watching movies, drawing, blogging, arts and crafts, Postcrossing, and lots more!

You spoke to me.....

Ok, so here's what's been going on this week. Yesterday while I was at work, I had a panic attack. I thought I was having a heart attack, or something was wrong with my heart. I felt like I could feel my heart actually flip flop in my chest. My chest was so tight. Ashley took my blood pressure and it was like 135/89....or something like that. It was high for me, usually I run about 118/72...or so. Anywaaaaays. Brenda and Ashley asked if I was anxious about anything. I was like,"no, not really." But then I started thinking.....
So, here's the story...
My dad's side of the family has not had a big Christmas together since before Zac was born. That's over 7 years. We used to have it at my aunt and uncle's house, but they moved to New Mexico when they retired. Plus some relatives moved to Dallas, Austin, and whatnot.
I guess that happens as you get older :( Well, we started just going to my dad's for Christmas. But we've even stopped doing that. My step monster is a little passive aggressive and like to take jabs behind everyone's back. She'd talk about my sister and my mom to me, when it's just us. Or she'll talk to Leah about me when I'm not around.
Of course, little does she know, since we never really talk to her, me and Leah are best friends and we tell eachother everything. oops, sorry wicked stepmother.
Ok, a little off subject.
This year, Leah has invited the entire side of my dad's family to her house for Christmas. I think it is wonderful. I'm excited about seeing everyone all together all at once again! I'll get to meet Carrie and Jorge's new addition, Ava. I'll get to chill with my cousin Ashley, I love that girl...and maybe I can talk her into bringing her tat stuff and tatting me up while she's here ;)
I asked Leah if dad was coming. My dad doesn't really have anything to do with his side of the family. Let's just say, it has to do with (his) past mistakes and refusing to talk about it. It has to do with a family that likes to drink and have a good time....and someone who let that kind of thing control his life for a long time...finally got out of it...and doesn't want to be around it.
I totally understand. I think it's wonderful when someone knows not to put themselves into a situation they shouldn't.
Surprisingly, Leah said my dad and little brother are coming! I'm excited. I haven't seen or talked to my dad since July. I figured it's because someone has been whispering in his ear for the past 29 years and maybe he's starting to believe her lies? I don't know.
So, I asked Leah, if SHE was coming? She said she doesn't know for sure if she's working (we're doing it on a Monday), but probably.
Hello, anxiety.
What do you do when someone you absolutely cannot stand is going to be in the same house as you...all day?
I thought....do I completely ignore her....act like she doesn't even exsist? Or do I kill her with kindness?
The thought of killing her with kindness makes me throw up in my mouth a little. I can't pretend! How can I pretend to a woman who has lied and caused trouble in our family for so many years???

Then I went to church tonight.
And tonight's lesson was meant for me.

Love one another.
Love others as God loves you.
Do not not love someone, just because you know you will not get anything in return.
Love is not selfish.
Sometimes in darkness, your love can be the only light. That one glimmer that someone else needed.

I sat there shaking my head, during the whole service...thinking, ok, God. I know what I gotta do. I gotta suck it up.
Will it be hard? Oh yes. It will be.
But I'm gonna try, dang it! :)


Oh, and I wasn't having a heart attack :) It was anxiety. I took a half of a Xanax and I felt my heart quit pounding, the tightening in the chest let up.
I took a couple deep breaths and felt a little better. :)

Wee Bit Wednesday!!!

Link up and play along here :)


{one} if you were granted three wishes, what would they be?for me and my family to be:
1.comfortable financially
2. balanced emotionally
(don't laugh, we've got some mental issues up in here, haha.)
and
3. physically well

{two} who is your favorite author?Stephen King, always and forever :)

{three} what crowd were you involved in during high school?I was more of a loner, like I am now. I've always just had a few close friends. I wasn't the "click" type.

{four} what is your favorite thing to do when you have time to yourself?Read, watch movies

{five} do you have any hidden talents?I like to draw.
{six} can you fake any accents?I like to try to fake a British accent just to make Marianne laugh.
{seven} have you ever been mentioned in the newspaper?Hmmm, when I was little I had my picture in the paper a couple times. :)

{eight} have you ever been arrested?Uhhhh, haha. Ok, ok...for having a stupid warrant for not paying a stupid speeding ticket. Those were the worst 4 or 5 hours of my life!!!

{nine} what is your favorite job you’ve had?Hmm, is it possible to have a favorite job? :) I guess the state hospital. It was never boring, anyway...

{ten} do you have any scars?I have so many scars. I couldn't begin to tell them all!

Let me tell you a secret...

I deleted my Facebook.
I put my blog on private.....
for a few days.

Don't ask me why. I just go through these weird phases, where I feel like I'm putting too much information out there.
I like to write about things that are going on in my life. From funny little stories about work or my family, to more serious things...at least serious to me, such as Zac's doctor appointments and Gage's crappy dad.
It's weird how I don't mind my friends or family reading my blog. Or even complete strangers. But there are the few certain people that you'd just rather not lurk your blog, or Facebook, or whatever. Ya know? But I guess if I choose to write about it, then I have to deal with people reading or judging or lurking. I guess it's not like a "tell all" book (blog). Believe it or not I don't post every move I make or every mood I'm in. You'd probably think I do as much as I sometimes post! :)

With Facebook I've found a lot of friends that I went to school with. Which was cool at first, but then it's like,"Hmmm, ok...maybe there's a reason we didn't bother staying in touch." People change. My real friends and family...yeah, tell me about how you're cooking out this weekend, so I can invite myself over :) But to the girl who was my best friend in 6th grade...I really don't want to hear a play by play of your son's baseball game. If it were my sister and she was posting a play by plays of Lucia's game, I wouldn't mind.
So, I was like...ok, I'll just start hiding the statuses of people I don't really talk to. I did that. Then I was like....I hid them, I don't talk to them...I might as well just delete them. So, I tried that.
But then I would feel bad when I would get another request from them.
So, I just deactivated the whole thing.
I'm sure it's not a permanent thing.
Like I said, I just go through certain phases.....

A Christmas Story

A Christmas Story. Classic. I love this movie! The pink bunny suit, "fuuuuudge", the sexy leg lamp, "You'll poke your eye out!"




One part I could never watch and always turned my head on, was when the boy got his tongue stuck to the pole. Just thinking about it gives me the chills. Ugh.


So, Friday night Gage stayed the night with James. I went to pick him up last night, and oh.my.gosh. I don't want to be one of "those people", but he smelled like a dirty ash tray. The smell made my stomach turn.
I wondered if that was I would smell like when I smoked! Ew.

Looks nasty, right? Stinks really bad, right?

Doesn't mean I don't still want one everyday!!

Soooo, I'm watching Beverly Hills 90210...the original. It's still wonderful, but man, this is some bad acting!!

But I still think Dylan is still the hottie of the show. :)

Yo, yo, what it is?!

That is how Lucia answered the phone yesterday. Thinking it was my aunt Lisa or her girl Rachel calling. But it was my grandma. Lucia was so embarrassed. It was hilarious.

anyways......I just thought that was funny, guess you had to be there.

Sooooooo,
This was me today.
No matter what side I woke up on...it was the wrong side.

I was in a foul mood this morning and I don't know why. The patients were driving me crazy!

But luckily, my co workers got me laughing by the afternoon. :)

I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday. I want to come home from work tomorrow, clean house, do laundry, then just lay around the rest of the weekend. :)

Sounds good, baby!

Wee Bit Wednesday...wait, Thursday :)

Wee Bit (late) Wednesday....link up and play along! :)

{one} if you were going to a remote place and could only bring one CD, what would it be?It would be a cd that I made. It'd probably have some Eminem, Bob Seger, Willie Nelson, JJ Cale, Kanye West, Bob Dylan....yeah, little bit of this, little bit of that!
{two} are you generally more of an optimist, pessimist, or realist?I've always wanted to be one of those optimist people, but I'm a realist.
{three} have you ever picked up a hitchhiker? if not, would you?
Are you insane??? Heck no I've never picked up a hitchhiker! Haven't you ever seen The Hitcher? And I'm not talking about the lame remake. I'm talking Rutger Hauer and C. Thomas Howell. SCARY!

{four} what spice or seasoning is your favorite?Salt. I love salt. I know it's bad, but I love it.
{five} what’s your birthstone? do you like it?
Amethyst. And no, not really. There are prettier stones out there...
{six} do you know what your name means?Crown...I think.
{seven} what is your favorite breakfast cereal?Blueberry Special K. Good stuff!
{eight} if there was an extra hour in each day, what would you spend it doing?
Probably an extra hour of sleep!! :)
{nine} if you could turn any book into a movie, which would it be?
I have no idea! I'm sure whatever it is, there will be a movie for it soon enough.
{ten} if you could go back and play out one day of your life to watch (like scrooge), what day would it be?
One of the days that me and my sis were playing out in the ditch at our clubhouse. Those were good times. :)

Let's see how long they can keep us waiting.....

December 1st. Here comes the Zackary count down. Everyday is....how many more days until Christmas? Well, how many days until Christmas Eve? I mean, everyday he'll be asking!!

One of my all time favorite Christmas movies......National Lampoons Christmas Vacation!
classic.

So, we had Zac's doctor appointment today. It lasted a little over three hours, which is better than the four hours they said it would be.

I read about 15 chapters of a book my sister let me borrow called "The Doctor's Wife". It's pretty good. It made the time go by pretty fast.

Of course, it was stupid of me to think they'd tell me anything today.

Of course, I have to go back on the 16 for the test results.

I hate all this waiting.

Oh well. Off to church we go!! :)

Then home to watch 'Survivor'! looooove it!

Cat's Eye

I'm a huge fan of Stephen King. Like, seriously. He's so awesome. I love his mind and the way it works. I love the way his stories stay with you. Sometimes they stay with you because they scare the crap out of you, but sometimes they stay with you just because they make you think.
I'll admit there have been a few of his books that have given me nightmares. Bag of Bones gave me nightmares for two weeks straight after reading it.
Gerald's Game left me laying awake in bed, staring into the darkness, wondering if something or someone was there...hidden. Pet Sematary scared me so bad, I had to get it out of my room. I hid it under my couch in the living room. I'm not kidding.
Why do I do that to myself? Because I absolutely love it! I love being scared!
So, when I was little I watched Stephen King's Cat's Eye with my mom and sister.
It scared me so bad! It's a film of 3 or 4 short movies. The one that scared me the most is about a little goblin thing that comes into a little girl's room (little girl played by Drew Barrymore) each night (through a hole that opens up in the wall), and tries to suck out her breath while she sleeps.

This is the scary little goblin. See the little bells at the end of his hat? When he's climbing up her comforter in the middle of the night, you can faintly hear them jingling.


Don't you just love Drew Barrymore? She was always so cute!
Anyway, this cat is in everyone of the short films. He shows up at Barrymore's house, she names him General. She wants to keep him, but mama says NO! She sneaks that kitty in without her mama knowing! And thank God she does, because General is there to save little Drew!!

Good stories! If you've never seen it, you should!

What got me thinking about Cat's Eye? Well, I woke up in the middle of the night. Do you ever do that? Wake up and feel like something woke you up, but you can't quite put your finger on what it was. Well, I did that. I was laying there, thinking....did Zac get up? Did someone knock on my door? Are the dogs barking?

So, I layed there a little longer, listening real hard. I didn't hear anything. So, I started drifting back to sleep. Then I heard a little jingle. And the Cat's Eye goblin came to mind. Oh my gosh! He's in my room! He woke me up by trying to suck the breath out of me!!

haha. Sounds retarded, right?

Well, I'll tell you what....it's not retarded at 12:45 a night! It's oh so real!

Today, it is silly. But I still wonder....what was that one little jingle in my room???

Need a new book to read!

I was making out Christmas cards last night...yes, I'm doing that already! We also got our tree put up yesterday! :) Anyways, I was addressing the envelopes and Zac asks if he can send a card to Santa. Well, of course, you can! All he has to do is set it beside Happy and he'll make sure Santa gets it. So, he writes Santa a long note inside the Christmas card, puts it in the envelope, puts one of my stamps on it, gosh! haha. Then brings it to me and says, "Do you like it?" Well, Zac, you misspelled Santa! You forgot the "n". OH! Is this better? Well, Zac....you have the n in the wrong place, it's SaN-TA. S-A-N-T-A, not S-A-T-A-N. hahaha. scribble, scribble, scribble write, write, write "Is this better?" "Well..." "What did I mess up on now?" "Well, nothing...it looks perfect! Santa will love it!" Even if you wrote 'Sorry I bib that' instead of "did" with an arrow to the scribbled out "Satan". hahahaa. I love that kid! Speaking of which, I can feel my anxiety rising. His appointment is this Wednesday. And while we are all excited about it, to figure out what's going on, I can't help but having the racing heart and sick to my stomach feeling. Ugh. I may need a Xanax the next couple days. Ohhh, just thinking about it, I can't breathe!!! So, Zac's testing is going to be 4 hours long. I need a good book to read!! I've read all the Sookie Stackhouse novels that are out. I read Stephen King's new book "Full Dark, No Stars"...which was freaking wonderful! Four short stories...oh my gosh. I couldn't put it down!! Loved it! So, what can I start reading now? Any suggestions? :)

Like mother, like daughter

I'm turning into my mother.
I always said I wouldn't.
But don't we all say that?
I used to get so mad at my mom for never getting out of the house. She would say,"I feel gross, I have nothing to wear, I just want to sit and relax."
That's me, now.
I cannot rememer the last time I made myself get out of the house....I mean, childless, to hang out with friends.
I was supposed to go to a friends big event last night and I didn't. I had planned on it all day, and at the last minute, I just didn't. I had nothing to wear. I was tired. I felt bad, knowing I wanted to be there, knowing I said I would be, but I couldn't make myself get up and get ready.

I cannot remember the last time I put on make up.
Ok, I don't really wear make up anyways, but I used to wear mascara and eyeliner! I don't even do that anymore.
Look at my Thanksgiving pictures.

Tonight is my friend Angela's 30th birthday. Another plan that I have made for tonight. I really want to go. I have all intentions of going.
I tell myself I'm going to take a shower, get dressed, put on some make up, feel good, get out and drink a beer. Enjoy some adult time.
But maybe I'm just doomed to be my mother.
A loner.
A hermit.
A recluse.
I feel myself not wanting to be that....but yet, I am.

Kinda depressing, right?

So, my apologies go to Ms. Marianne and Ms. Micaela. I am so sorry I missed such an amazing night.

Ornament Swap!!

I received my package from my ornament swap partner today!! Karina really went all out. I feel that I kind of fell short on the package surprise bundle. I just sent a couple ornaments and a Christmas card! :/
Karina sent the sweet note, a Christmas card for me and my boys, AND her little guy Miguelito sent my little guy Zackary a postcard!! He'll be so excited to see it when he gets home on Sunday!

Here are all our little surprises! Do it yourself ornaments, me and my boys will enjoy those!! A beautiful hand painted ornament. Candy, pencils, a keychain that has my name on it....oh my goodness....so sweet.


And as a fellow True Blood lover, it was sweet for her to part with these and send them to me. Honestly, if I had bought them for someone, I probably would've ended up keeping them for myself! haha.

I love it all so much! Thank you so much, Mickey, for partnering me up with such a thoughtful gal! :)
Love it alllllll!!!!!!

Family Time

Thanksgiving pictures.....

I actually helped with Thanksgiving lunch this year. Crazy, right? Leah made fun of me because I pulled up a chair to the sink to peel potatoes. At least I helped, right?


This is how I looked for our entire Thanksgiving. I didn't shower or change or put on even a little make up. Take it or leave it. haha.


Lucia and Rachel, I have no idea what this face Lucia is making, weirdo.


Paw Paw with Gavin and Jack. :)


Jack all dressed up for Thanksgiving. Looking just like his daddy. Unfortunately his daddy had to work and missed Thanksgiving this year. :/


My sister Lacey and her boy Gavin.


My boy, Gage.


My Aunt Lisa. (Rachel's mom)


Some how my mom, Leah, and Zac avoided getting their pictures made! :(

We had a good Thanksgiving. How about you?