So, we had Zac's appointment yesterday. The doctor says he definitely has high anxiety....hmmm, I wonder where he gets that from! He is ADHD. She says she is saying it is probable that he has Aspergers. But she wants to do further testing on that before saying for sure.
We're going to start therapy for the anxiety (and also self esteem type issues...hmm, wonder where he gets that...I guess he is his mother's son) and then also 6 weeks of group classes with other kids with the same problem. His first therapy session is this Saturday.
Then in February, has an appointment to see about trying different medications, either for the anxiety...that may also help with the ADHD, or medicine for the ADHD, that may also help with the anxiety. She says one may be causing the other. Soooo, we shall see.
I was a mess yesterday. I couldn't help but think the confidence in himself was my fault. Maybe I didn't praise him enough? Maybe I wasn't the mother I should have been, especially going through the divorce and seperation from his dad. I went a little crazy and started going out all the time. Maybe I neglected him?
I don't know, but of course, being a parent, you can't help but blame yourself.
I guess I'm just glad that we're figuring out what's going on, so we help him out.....and me! Because believe me, a child with ADHD, anxiety, and possibly Aspergers is quite a handful sometimes. :)
But I thank all my friends and family for the support I've been given :) I would have lost it by now, if not for them. Especially my sister, who goes to the appointments with me. She made me feel better yesterday when I went through my bawling and self blaming game.
