Saturday, December 31, 2011
random conversations
Couple weeks ago at McDonalds:
Drive Thru Lady: "Thank you. Come again!"
Me: "You too."
Last week at work:
Drug Rep: "Howdy."
Me: "Good."
Uhhhh........I like to think what people should say, then respond according to that. :)
Christmas Eve after opening presents:
Zac: "Mom, this says it was made in Italy."
Me: "Yep. Because it was...."
Zac: "I thought everything was made in China."
...he's so observant!
Yesterday at work, texts from Gage, home from a church camp-out.
Gage: "Mom. You locked me out of the house."
Me: "Awww, I'm so sorry!! I thought you didn't have your phone....did you get in?"
Gage: "Yeah. Through the doggy door."
Me: "Bahahahaha, I'm sorry. Good thinking, though."
.....about an hour later, Gage about to leave to go to his sister's.....
Me: "Hey, will you please feed Beauty before you leave?"
Gage: "I already did."
Me: "Look at you, being all responsible! :) "
Gage: "Somebody's gotta be."
....oh no, you didn't! haha.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Pictures
My friend Yarei was nice enough to come take pics of my boys, niece, and nephews for me!
They turned out really cute! :)
They turned out really cute! :)
My nephew, Gavin, 4
My nephew, Jack, 4
My niece, Lucia, 10
My boy, Zac, 8 (will be 9 on January 16th!)
My boy, Gage, 15 (will be 16 on Feburary 27th *sad face*)
Jack and Lu
Zac and Gage
The Whole Gang!
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Laughter and Tears this Christmas :)
Merry Christmas, everyone!!
I had a pretty good Christmas!
Yesterday (Christmas Eve), we went to my mom's. It was me and my boys. Leah and Dustin with their kiddos. Lacey with her boyfriend, Chris and sweetie pie son, Gavin. My mom and Mike, my grandma, my Aunt Lisa and her daughter, our cousin, Rachel.
We all made little finger foods to bring, opened presents, and of course, talked and laughed and talked and laughed some more.
I love my family! :)
I was surprised to see Christmas presents from both my boys this year!
I guess Zac's dad gave him some money to spend at school. They have the Santa's Workshop for kids every year.
Zac bought me this beautiful necklace!! ;)
So sweet!
A few weeks ago, when Gage went to visit his "sister", Kayla, he came back with this gift for me!
I love my boys. They are the sweetest!!!
So today, Christmas day, me and my boys went to Leah's for Christmas with my dad and little brother (I say little, but he's 18). It was nice to sit and talk with them.
Before they made it over, I told Gage to hold his new shotgun, so I could send a picture to his Mee Maw and Paw Paw.
He's so proud of it.
After taking this picture, we (me, Leah, and Gage) starting talking about how grown up he's getting. He had originally said he wanted an X Box for Christmas, but he changed his mind. He doesn't hang out inside much anymore. Leah said,"Well, because you're growing up. Shotguns, driving in a couple months...."
He was shaking his head yeah. And I started tearing up.
I had to walk away for a few minutes.
If you know me, you know I don't like crying in front of people! And that's what happened. I started crying.
My little boy is growing up. I can't believe he'll be 16 in February.
I think about it all the time nearly have panic attacks each time I think about him on the road....alone.
But something about today....just looking at this boy, that used to be my little man, stuck at my side....everywhere I went....he's grown up. In high school, driving soon, a new gun!, already talking about getting a job!
My heart is breaking. My first born....
Ok, sorry.....I didn't mean to go into all that.
So, earlier I said that Lacey and her boyfriend, Chris, were at my mom's yesterday.
Yes, yesterday he was her boyfriend.
But not last night.
As of last night.....he is her fiancee. OMG!
My little sister is getting married!!!!
Look at that beautiful ring!!!
I am so excited for her!!!
Another thing about me....if you know me...you know I'm pretty much anti-marriage....been there, done that, didn't like it.....
But I am happy for my little sister. She found a really good guy! He's wonderful with Gavin, goes to church, works, and he loves my sister.
I could go on and on about him, but I won't.
Let me just say, he's a special one. Lacey says he's her best friend, loves talking to him, and spending time with him.
And in the end, that's all that matters.
Because we all know that looks fade and sexual attraction diminishes.
But still having your best friend by your side, one who you can't wait to come home to and share your day with, someone you can see yourself growing old with, still laughing with and enjoying each other's presence :) Yeah, that's what it should be about. That's what I see for my little sister. And I'm so happy for her!
I had a pretty good Christmas!
Yesterday (Christmas Eve), we went to my mom's. It was me and my boys. Leah and Dustin with their kiddos. Lacey with her boyfriend, Chris and sweetie pie son, Gavin. My mom and Mike, my grandma, my Aunt Lisa and her daughter, our cousin, Rachel.
We all made little finger foods to bring, opened presents, and of course, talked and laughed and talked and laughed some more.
I love my family! :)
I was surprised to see Christmas presents from both my boys this year!
I guess Zac's dad gave him some money to spend at school. They have the Santa's Workshop for kids every year.
Zac bought me this beautiful necklace!! ;)
So sweet!
A few weeks ago, when Gage went to visit his "sister", Kayla, he came back with this gift for me!
I love my boys. They are the sweetest!!!
So today, Christmas day, me and my boys went to Leah's for Christmas with my dad and little brother (I say little, but he's 18). It was nice to sit and talk with them. Before they made it over, I told Gage to hold his new shotgun, so I could send a picture to his Mee Maw and Paw Paw.
He's so proud of it.
After taking this picture, we (me, Leah, and Gage) starting talking about how grown up he's getting. He had originally said he wanted an X Box for Christmas, but he changed his mind. He doesn't hang out inside much anymore. Leah said,"Well, because you're growing up. Shotguns, driving in a couple months...."
He was shaking his head yeah. And I started tearing up.
I had to walk away for a few minutes.
If you know me, you know I don't like crying in front of people! And that's what happened. I started crying.
My little boy is growing up. I can't believe he'll be 16 in February.
I think about it all the time nearly have panic attacks each time I think about him on the road....alone.
But something about today....just looking at this boy, that used to be my little man, stuck at my side....everywhere I went....he's grown up. In high school, driving soon, a new gun!, already talking about getting a job!
My heart is breaking. My first born....
Ok, sorry.....I didn't mean to go into all that.
So, earlier I said that Lacey and her boyfriend, Chris, were at my mom's yesterday.
Yes, yesterday he was her boyfriend.
But not last night.
As of last night.....he is her fiancee. OMG!
My little sister is getting married!!!!
Look at that beautiful ring!!!
I am so excited for her!!!
Another thing about me....if you know me...you know I'm pretty much anti-marriage....been there, done that, didn't like it.....
But I am happy for my little sister. She found a really good guy! He's wonderful with Gavin, goes to church, works, and he loves my sister.
I could go on and on about him, but I won't.
Let me just say, he's a special one. Lacey says he's her best friend, loves talking to him, and spending time with him.
And in the end, that's all that matters.
Because we all know that looks fade and sexual attraction diminishes.
But still having your best friend by your side, one who you can't wait to come home to and share your day with, someone you can see yourself growing old with, still laughing with and enjoying each other's presence :) Yeah, that's what it should be about. That's what I see for my little sister. And I'm so happy for her!
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Tis the season....
To be disgusted by stupid men who think they're superior to women.
Ok, I know there are some good guys out there.....somewhere.
But my oldest son's dad is not one of them.
For the past six years, I've been mom and dad to Gage. Ever since his dad decided that he was weak, drugs were more important than his son, and that's the life he obviously wants to live.
My son is turning into a man. I may not be the best person to teach him how to do that, but I'm doing the best I can.
I was with him when he set up his very first checking account today.
I buy his clothes, his food, paid for his braces, taught him to mow the lawn, how to drive, and every other thing in between....no matter how big or small.
All me.
So, when he asks for a gun for Christmas, I am the one who has to go and buy it for him.
I consulted with my brother in law. I wanted to know what would be a good gun for him. His first gun, still fairly young, you know....all that stuff.
Lord knows I know nothing about guns.
After my brother in law suggested a 20 gauge, pump shot gun (for a first timer).....I went out to find one for my son.
Hello, Academy.
Hello, Asshole, who works behind the counter.
I may be a woman. I may know nothing about guns.
But that does not give you the right to treat me so rudely!
Tuesday, me and my sister went out to finish up Christmas shopping. When we walked up to the counter at Academy, there was no one around. The man came to help us out. We told him what we were looking for. He started to show us different varieties of what we were looking for.
Another man walked up and the guy at the counter just walked away. Without a word to us, and started helping the other MANLY MAN.
When he was done helping the man....who did NOT purchase anything....he came back to us. With disgusted and shocked looks on our faces.
Who does that?
So, we look at the guns. We find one we like, he hand me the paperwork I have to fill out. In the middle of him telling me what all I need to fill out, blah, blah, blah, two guys walk up together, talking about a scope that broke that needed to be replaced.
The guy behind the counter stopped mid-sentence, to walk away and help these men.
As he was helping them, my sister and I were debating on whether or not we wanted to walk out and go somewhere else.
But we already had the one we wanted. We just had to do the paperwork.
After helping the TWO MENLY MEN....who did NOT buy anything, he came back to us.
Did I mention that the first manly man that didn't buy anything ran into my sister with his cart as he was leaving? He was looking one direction and the cart was going in the other direction. We stepped back, but the cart hit Leah's hand. Did he apologize? Did he even acknowledge our existence?? NO!
What is wrong with these stupid men???
So, we finally finish the paperwork, find the bullets that go with it....with the help of the guy behind the counter pointing with his finger toward the direction of where we can find them and calling out the colors of the box to us.
rude.
Then he asks this other guy to take the gun up front to transfer it out of their name, into mine. The guy asks why he didn't ask the other guy. The other guy just came in and this guy is about to go to lunch.
asshole.
But he very nicely walks our gun to the front, all the while, ignoring us....like we do not exists.
We follow him all the way to the front, where he steps into a little glass office area.
He laughs and jokes with the manly men while we stand there wondering what the hell we're supposed to do.
About 5 minutes later, he walks out....without the gun, and walks past us....like we're non- existent.
My sister stops him and is like,"Uhh, what are we doing?"
Then he tells us that they're transferring, blah, blah, they will take the gun to the counter for us to pay for it, when they're done with that.
And he walks away.
That was it.
I was disgusted with men from that morning on. It seems like every man we came in contact with Tuesday were members of the He-Man Woman-Hating Club.
They are so superior.
Stupid women, trying to buy guns for their sons!
That's a MAN'S job!
Well, guess what fuck-face? THAT man who should be doing this, ran away from his responsibilities.
So, it's just me.
Give me a freaking break, will ya?
That was my Christmas experience rant.
;)
Ok, I know there are some good guys out there.....somewhere.
But my oldest son's dad is not one of them.
For the past six years, I've been mom and dad to Gage. Ever since his dad decided that he was weak, drugs were more important than his son, and that's the life he obviously wants to live.
My son is turning into a man. I may not be the best person to teach him how to do that, but I'm doing the best I can.
I was with him when he set up his very first checking account today.
I buy his clothes, his food, paid for his braces, taught him to mow the lawn, how to drive, and every other thing in between....no matter how big or small.
All me.
So, when he asks for a gun for Christmas, I am the one who has to go and buy it for him.
I consulted with my brother in law. I wanted to know what would be a good gun for him. His first gun, still fairly young, you know....all that stuff.
Lord knows I know nothing about guns.
After my brother in law suggested a 20 gauge, pump shot gun (for a first timer).....I went out to find one for my son.
Hello, Academy.
Hello, Asshole, who works behind the counter.
I may be a woman. I may know nothing about guns.
But that does not give you the right to treat me so rudely!
Tuesday, me and my sister went out to finish up Christmas shopping. When we walked up to the counter at Academy, there was no one around. The man came to help us out. We told him what we were looking for. He started to show us different varieties of what we were looking for.
Another man walked up and the guy at the counter just walked away. Without a word to us, and started helping the other MANLY MAN.
When he was done helping the man....who did NOT purchase anything....he came back to us. With disgusted and shocked looks on our faces.
Who does that?
So, we look at the guns. We find one we like, he hand me the paperwork I have to fill out. In the middle of him telling me what all I need to fill out, blah, blah, blah, two guys walk up together, talking about a scope that broke that needed to be replaced.
The guy behind the counter stopped mid-sentence, to walk away and help these men.
As he was helping them, my sister and I were debating on whether or not we wanted to walk out and go somewhere else.
But we already had the one we wanted. We just had to do the paperwork.
After helping the TWO MENLY MEN....who did NOT buy anything, he came back to us.
Did I mention that the first manly man that didn't buy anything ran into my sister with his cart as he was leaving? He was looking one direction and the cart was going in the other direction. We stepped back, but the cart hit Leah's hand. Did he apologize? Did he even acknowledge our existence?? NO!
What is wrong with these stupid men???
So, we finally finish the paperwork, find the bullets that go with it....with the help of the guy behind the counter pointing with his finger toward the direction of where we can find them and calling out the colors of the box to us.
rude.
Then he asks this other guy to take the gun up front to transfer it out of their name, into mine. The guy asks why he didn't ask the other guy. The other guy just came in and this guy is about to go to lunch.
asshole.
But he very nicely walks our gun to the front, all the while, ignoring us....like we do not exists.
We follow him all the way to the front, where he steps into a little glass office area.
He laughs and jokes with the manly men while we stand there wondering what the hell we're supposed to do.
About 5 minutes later, he walks out....without the gun, and walks past us....like we're non- existent.
My sister stops him and is like,"Uhh, what are we doing?"
Then he tells us that they're transferring, blah, blah, they will take the gun to the counter for us to pay for it, when they're done with that.
And he walks away.
That was it.
I was disgusted with men from that morning on. It seems like every man we came in contact with Tuesday were members of the He-Man Woman-Hating Club.
They are so superior.
Stupid women, trying to buy guns for their sons!
That's a MAN'S job!
Well, guess what fuck-face? THAT man who should be doing this, ran away from his responsibilities.
So, it's just me.
Give me a freaking break, will ya?
That was my Christmas experience rant.
;)
Monday, December 12, 2011
Busy girl, crafty girl.
HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!
If you ever watched Seinfeld, you know how you have to say that...HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!
What's been going on the blog world???
I do not know. I just don't have the time to keep up with all you people!! And I miss it!!
I'm hoping that when Christmas and the New Year are over, things will slow down...like REALLY slow down.
Seems like all I do is work, take care of kids, do laundry, clean house, ya know....the real fun stuff.
I did have a nice little weekend.
Friday night was my work Christmas party. Marianne was my date. Although I know the main reason she agreed to go was to ogle at one of the doctors I work for.
haha. She is a d.o.r.k.
I had a lot of fun. I believe I drank a little too much, talked too much, and probably a little too loud (over the music).
I woke up Saturday morning hoarse. My throat hurt and I could hardly speak.
But it was worth it. I love my co workers. I love the doctors I work for.
Watching them sing karaoke and dance and laugh.....and be normal, makes me smile. :)
So, Saturday morning I woke up at 5:00....because I just can't sleep late. No matter how late I stay up, no matter how much I drink, no matter how tired I am.....I'm up by 7 at the latest, EVERY weekend.
This week is Secret Santa Week at work. So, I decided to try out a Pinterest recipe. I made about 10 little pans of Whiskey Cake.
I took a few pans around, made my family try it out, to see how it was.
Survey says: YUM!
So, I wrapped some up and made it today's gift to my Secret.....secret present receiver?
I also brought an extra pan for the girls up front.
They loved it. Yep.....I'm totally a great baker! ;)
Sunday I made my famous Pepper Jelly. It will be added to Friday's gift to my person!
I can't give it any earlier....everyone knows I'm the one who makes it!
Isn't it pretty?
I'm quite crafty and cooky lately! Pinterest is a wonderful thing.
I've made a majority of my gifts this year. I can't show certain ones, because some of my blog friends will be receiving them for Christmas! :)
But I LOVED this soda tab bracelet idea!!
I made these for Lucia, my aunt's little girl, Rachel, and Zac took the yellow and orange one.
Although he doesn't wear it. haha.
Too girlie, I suppose!
So, that's what's been going on with me! Work, kids, laundry, cleaning, baking, cooking, crafts, and no blogging. :(
Hopefully I'll be able to catch up with all of your lives after the new year.
I hope you are all doing super awesomely! ;)
Have a great week!!
If you ever watched Seinfeld, you know how you have to say that...HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!
What's been going on the blog world???
I do not know. I just don't have the time to keep up with all you people!! And I miss it!!
I'm hoping that when Christmas and the New Year are over, things will slow down...like REALLY slow down.
Seems like all I do is work, take care of kids, do laundry, clean house, ya know....the real fun stuff.
I did have a nice little weekend.
Friday night was my work Christmas party. Marianne was my date. Although I know the main reason she agreed to go was to ogle at one of the doctors I work for.
haha. She is a d.o.r.k.
I had a lot of fun. I believe I drank a little too much, talked too much, and probably a little too loud (over the music).
I woke up Saturday morning hoarse. My throat hurt and I could hardly speak.
But it was worth it. I love my co workers. I love the doctors I work for.
Watching them sing karaoke and dance and laugh.....and be normal, makes me smile. :)
So, Saturday morning I woke up at 5:00....because I just can't sleep late. No matter how late I stay up, no matter how much I drink, no matter how tired I am.....I'm up by 7 at the latest, EVERY weekend.
This week is Secret Santa Week at work. So, I decided to try out a Pinterest recipe. I made about 10 little pans of Whiskey Cake.
I took a few pans around, made my family try it out, to see how it was.
Survey says: YUM!
WHISKEY CAKE, baby!
So, I wrapped some up and made it today's gift to my Secret.....secret present receiver?
I also brought an extra pan for the girls up front.
They loved it. Yep.....I'm totally a great baker! ;)
Sunday I made my famous Pepper Jelly. It will be added to Friday's gift to my person!
I can't give it any earlier....everyone knows I'm the one who makes it!
Isn't it pretty?
I'm quite crafty and cooky lately! Pinterest is a wonderful thing.
I've made a majority of my gifts this year. I can't show certain ones, because some of my blog friends will be receiving them for Christmas! :)
But I LOVED this soda tab bracelet idea!!
I made these for Lucia, my aunt's little girl, Rachel, and Zac took the yellow and orange one.
Although he doesn't wear it. haha.
Too girlie, I suppose!
So, that's what's been going on with me! Work, kids, laundry, cleaning, baking, cooking, crafts, and no blogging. :(
Hopefully I'll be able to catch up with all of your lives after the new year.
I hope you are all doing super awesomely! ;)
Have a great week!!
Saturday, November 26, 2011
4 day weekend!
I'm loving my 4 day weekend. Unfortunately, I only have one day left :(
Thanksgiving day, I stayed home all by my lonesome and slept most of the day away.
Gage was with Kayla from Wednesday to Friday night, and Zac with his dad. So Friday, I stayed in most of the day, too. I did my DIY arts and craft ideas from Pinterest.
I freaking LOVE this website. I've spent so much time at Hobby Lobby the past few weeks. I LOVE that store now!
Friday, Lucia and Jack came over around 3 and ended up staying the night. We had a lot of fun. We worked on the presents I'm making for my mom and step dad, and for my dad.
Then we made Christmas ornaments out of flour, salt, and water. We molded them, then cooked them, then painted them. It was a lot of fun. Then we colored those fuzzy art things with markers.
It started raining, so all four kiddos went to jump on the trampoline in the rain. :)
We all had a really good time!
Today was our Thanksgiving. My little sister has to work nights, and she had to work the night before and the night after Thanksgiving. So, we postponed our Thanksgiving.
I always have fun when my family gets together. Good food, good conversation, really good desserts!
My mom was making the mashed potatoes and had a little mishap.
Thanksgiving day, I stayed home all by my lonesome and slept most of the day away.
Gage was with Kayla from Wednesday to Friday night, and Zac with his dad. So Friday, I stayed in most of the day, too. I did my DIY arts and craft ideas from Pinterest.
I freaking LOVE this website. I've spent so much time at Hobby Lobby the past few weeks. I LOVE that store now!
Friday, Lucia and Jack came over around 3 and ended up staying the night. We had a lot of fun. We worked on the presents I'm making for my mom and step dad, and for my dad.
Then we made Christmas ornaments out of flour, salt, and water. We molded them, then cooked them, then painted them. It was a lot of fun. Then we colored those fuzzy art things with markers.
It started raining, so all four kiddos went to jump on the trampoline in the rain. :)
We all had a really good time!
Today was our Thanksgiving. My little sister has to work nights, and she had to work the night before and the night after Thanksgiving. So, we postponed our Thanksgiving.
I always have fun when my family gets together. Good food, good conversation, really good desserts!
My mom was making the mashed potatoes and had a little mishap.
Her old mixer went out of control and she made a mess. I suppose it's kinda my fault. :) I borrowed her good mixer to make a cake and never brought it back, so she had to use her ghetto one. haha.
She was so pissed at herself, but me and Lacey were cracking up. There were mashed potatoes all over.
hil.ar.i.ous!
After lunch and visiting....and re watching a few Josh Krajic (X Factor) magical moments, we went to check out my older sister's new house.
O.M.G.
This house is out of control.
I came really close to having to take a Xanax, just walking through.
It's freaking HUGE! I'm convinced it's haunted.
You know those nightmares you have over and over? I've had this reoccurring nightmare about a 2 story house. The upstairs is always haunted. I go up there, but have a bad feeling, then I open this one door, expecting it to be a closet. It ends up being like a whole other house. Like, living room, bedroom, bathroom, kitchen. It always has this really bad vibe.
Well, Leah's new house reminded me of this dream.
You walk in and there's a huge living room, then the dining room, then the kitchen. From the kitchen there's stairs down to the basement. There's a little breakfast nook also. Then you go down a long hall way. There's the big master bedroom, the master bath. Then stairs to the upstairs. Beside the upstairs there's a door that opens to a little storage area....the storage area has a little door that opens to another little scary room. But it's not really a door. It's a piece of ply wood covering the little room.
Next to the master bedroom, there was another door. That I thought lead to a bedroom. But you open it, and you can walk into another area. It's a hallway with a media room, a bathroom, and another kitchen/laundry area.
scary.
Upstairs there's a storage area that's a pretty good size....but the it only locks from the inside? Why?? That's creepy.
There's a bathroom, a hallway that has Lu and Jack's bedroom off to each side. Each bedroom has a huge closet, each closet has a little door at the back, that leads into more little secret rooms.
Ok, maybe I watch too many scary movies, but o.m.g. I'm getting short of breath just writing about it. SCARY!
At the end of the hall is another room, that will be their playroom.
You can get up into the attic from their hallway. Did I go up there? No. I did not.
I was left upstairs by myself at one point and hauled ass down the stairs.
I would love this house if I haven't had those nightmares.
But it's too erie, too close.
I told Leah I wasn't staying the night with her ever again. Maybe after I go visit a few times and see that it's not haunted, maybe after I get comfortable there, maybe.....maybe....I'll stay.
But I've already told her, I'm not babysitting for her there.
And she already scared me while we were looking around.
She came up all jerking and fast...and I screamed.
ugh.
I've got to stop watching scary movies!!!!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Happy Thanksgiving
I am thankful for
my boys, Gage and Zac
my mom, Becky
my step dad, Mike
my dad, Steve
my sisters, Leah and Lacey
my brother, Taylor
my nephews, Jack and Gavin
my niece, Lucia
my grandma, Doyce
all my aunts and uncles
all my cousins
friends, old and new
a roof over our head
clothes on our back
food in our bellies
our health
a car to drive....
to
my job.
my coworkers
Dr Pepper
True Blood
....to be continued.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
I love you, Stephen King!
To my Facebook friends, I am so sorry for all the Stephen King posts! But I was freaking excited!!
So, if you're super tired of hearing about Stephen King from me.....quit reading now! ;)
Last Thursday my sister and I took a trip to Dallas to meet up with our cousins, Carrie and Ashley. We, the Stephen King 'Constant Reader(s)', were lucky enough to get tickets to his book tour.
Being the fan that I am, I HAD to make a t-shirt, showing my love. <3
After visiting for a while, and playing with Carrie's little ones; Ava and Annabel, and her nanny's little boy, we hit the road.
We had a good lunch, talking about old times and laughing so hard....my stomach muscles seriously hurt. I haven't laughed like that in so long.
Even if I hadn't seen Stephen King, it would've been an ideal day. Growing up, we cousins were always so close.
BUT, I DID see Stephen King.
That was the icing on the cake!!
We got into THE room about 45 minutes early. I had to take a picture of THE CHAIR, that STEPHEN freakin' KING would be sitting in.
Oh, how that 45 minutes dragged by!!! We were so giddy!
Then, finally......he came out.
And I almost cried.
Some people may think I'm really stupid, but I am just such a huge fan.
I always HATED reading. Anytime I had books I had to read in school, my dad would rent the movies for me.d Because he knew I wouldn't read it.
Even if I did, I couldn't focus on the words I was reading. I would read the same paragraph five times and still not comprehend.
Then when Gage was about 2 or 3, I finally allowed his dad to take him for the weekend.
I never went out. I was a homebody.
So, I decided that I would try to read a Stephen King book. My whole life I saw his books in my mom and sister's hands and thought I'd give one a try.
The first book I read of his was 'The Stand'. Within the first few pages, I was hooked.
It took a few days to finish it. The last chapter took the longest, because I didn't want it to end.
And I've been reading his books nonstop since then.
His new book is about the JFK assassination. Kind of a "what if" it hadn't happened?
I haven't read it yet, but I'm super excited to.
Of course, since his book is obviously partly about politics, he voiced his opinion on the subject.
We agreed to disagree on that matter.
He also said he was agnostic.
We also agreed to disagree on that.
I guess it would be stupid for me to think that our views on everything would be the same.
But I just love his mind so much and couldn't wait to hear words coming out of his mouth!
I was a little disappointed in his beliefs.
But of course, when he wasn't talking about religion and politics, I was absorbing and loving every word!
He told a story about Michael Jackson.
He said one day he got a phone call and someone came to him and said, "Michael Jackson's on the phone."
He was like...."yeah right."
But he had to go check it out. So, he said he got to the phone and said "hello", then in his best high pitch Michael Jackson voice he said,"Stephen, this is Mike. I wanted to know if you would work with me on a short film, music video? I want it to be the scariest short film anyone has every seen. Will you do it?"
(maybe not in those EXACT words)
And Stephen said to Michael Jackson, in the same high pitch voice,"Why, yes, Michael. I can do that."
Then he said that one day Michael Jackson called his house. Tabitha (King's wife) answered and said that Steve wasn't home, but gave him a number to where he could be reached.
About 10 minutes later, SK said that the phone rang again, and Tabitha answered to hear MJ sobbing. He said that he was so sorry, but he didn't have a pen when she gave him the number, so he tried to write the number in his carpet and he couldn't see it anymore.
WOW!
So funny, but kinda sad too.
Something that surprised me about him is that he doesn't once a cell phone! He calls it a wrist-slave and refused to buy one.
How awesome is that?
I wish I could get rid of my cell phone. We are all slaves to them.
There was so much he talked about, I wish I could just type out every word, but obviously, I can't.
To sum it all up, he wasn't all I had made him out to be in my head (but can anyone live up to the expectations of someone they've never met?).
All in all, it was wonderful.
A once in a lifetime opportunity, and I'm so glad I got to go. Especially to be able to go with my fellow SK lovers/family!
So, if you're super tired of hearing about Stephen King from me.....quit reading now! ;)
Last Thursday my sister and I took a trip to Dallas to meet up with our cousins, Carrie and Ashley. We, the Stephen King 'Constant Reader(s)', were lucky enough to get tickets to his book tour.
Being the fan that I am, I HAD to make a t-shirt, showing my love. <3
After visiting for a while, and playing with Carrie's little ones; Ava and Annabel, and her nanny's little boy, we hit the road.
We had a good lunch, talking about old times and laughing so hard....my stomach muscles seriously hurt. I haven't laughed like that in so long.
Even if I hadn't seen Stephen King, it would've been an ideal day. Growing up, we cousins were always so close.
BUT, I DID see Stephen King.
That was the icing on the cake!!
We got into THE room about 45 minutes early. I had to take a picture of THE CHAIR, that STEPHEN freakin' KING would be sitting in.
Oh, how that 45 minutes dragged by!!! We were so giddy!
Then, finally......he came out.
And I almost cried.
Some people may think I'm really stupid, but I am just such a huge fan.
I always HATED reading. Anytime I had books I had to read in school, my dad would rent the movies for me.d Because he knew I wouldn't read it.
Even if I did, I couldn't focus on the words I was reading. I would read the same paragraph five times and still not comprehend.
Then when Gage was about 2 or 3, I finally allowed his dad to take him for the weekend.
I never went out. I was a homebody.
So, I decided that I would try to read a Stephen King book. My whole life I saw his books in my mom and sister's hands and thought I'd give one a try.
The first book I read of his was 'The Stand'. Within the first few pages, I was hooked.
It took a few days to finish it. The last chapter took the longest, because I didn't want it to end.
And I've been reading his books nonstop since then.
His new book is about the JFK assassination. Kind of a "what if" it hadn't happened?
I haven't read it yet, but I'm super excited to.
Of course, since his book is obviously partly about politics, he voiced his opinion on the subject.
We agreed to disagree on that matter.
He also said he was agnostic.
We also agreed to disagree on that.
I guess it would be stupid for me to think that our views on everything would be the same.
But I just love his mind so much and couldn't wait to hear words coming out of his mouth!
I was a little disappointed in his beliefs.
But of course, when he wasn't talking about religion and politics, I was absorbing and loving every word!
He told a story about Michael Jackson.
He said one day he got a phone call and someone came to him and said, "Michael Jackson's on the phone."
He was like...."yeah right."
But he had to go check it out. So, he said he got to the phone and said "hello", then in his best high pitch Michael Jackson voice he said,"Stephen, this is Mike. I wanted to know if you would work with me on a short film, music video? I want it to be the scariest short film anyone has every seen. Will you do it?"
(maybe not in those EXACT words)
And Stephen said to Michael Jackson, in the same high pitch voice,"Why, yes, Michael. I can do that."
Then he said that one day Michael Jackson called his house. Tabitha (King's wife) answered and said that Steve wasn't home, but gave him a number to where he could be reached.
About 10 minutes later, SK said that the phone rang again, and Tabitha answered to hear MJ sobbing. He said that he was so sorry, but he didn't have a pen when she gave him the number, so he tried to write the number in his carpet and he couldn't see it anymore.
WOW!
So funny, but kinda sad too.
Something that surprised me about him is that he doesn't once a cell phone! He calls it a wrist-slave and refused to buy one.
How awesome is that?
I wish I could get rid of my cell phone. We are all slaves to them.
There was so much he talked about, I wish I could just type out every word, but obviously, I can't.
To sum it all up, he wasn't all I had made him out to be in my head (but can anyone live up to the expectations of someone they've never met?).
All in all, it was wonderful.
A once in a lifetime opportunity, and I'm so glad I got to go. Especially to be able to go with my fellow SK lovers/family!
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Well, hello there.
Long time, no write.
I used to find time to blog a little at work. But we've been so busy!
I've been training the new girl! And I love her!! She's a fast learner and hard worker. Just what I wanted!
I felt the after shock of the earthquake in Oklahoma last night. So many things were going through my head when it happened.
First I thought it was my imagination. Then I thought my bed was levitating like on the Exorcist. Then I thought, maybe a UFO was over my house and I was about to be abducted by aliens. My bed starting shaking and I thought Gage or Leah had come in and were trying to scare me. I called out into the dark,"Hello? Hello?"
Then I got on Facebook and was relieved to see that it wasn't just my house.
I know most of the things I thought it was seems a little unbelievable. But to me, they're more believable than a freaking earthquake in Texas.
Right?
I'm so excited!!! Next Thursday I am going to see STEPHEN KING!!!! He'll be in Dallas for a book tour and I AM GOING!!!
So.....I've seen Bob Seger!, Willie Nelson!, and NOW I get to see Stephen King!!
I'm going to make a shirt to wear!!
I <3 Stephen King
on the back, it may say,"I'm your #1 Fan!" (SK book, Misery)
That's all I really have to say right now. Not a lot going on.
Just working, working, working.
Trying to make that money for Christmas. :)
I hope my blog friends are well. Hopefully I'll find time to write more and catch up with what's been going on in your lives.
:)
I used to find time to blog a little at work. But we've been so busy!
I've been training the new girl! And I love her!! She's a fast learner and hard worker. Just what I wanted!
I felt the after shock of the earthquake in Oklahoma last night. So many things were going through my head when it happened.
First I thought it was my imagination. Then I thought my bed was levitating like on the Exorcist. Then I thought, maybe a UFO was over my house and I was about to be abducted by aliens. My bed starting shaking and I thought Gage or Leah had come in and were trying to scare me. I called out into the dark,"Hello? Hello?"
Then I got on Facebook and was relieved to see that it wasn't just my house.
I know most of the things I thought it was seems a little unbelievable. But to me, they're more believable than a freaking earthquake in Texas.
Right?
I'm so excited!!! Next Thursday I am going to see STEPHEN KING!!!! He'll be in Dallas for a book tour and I AM GOING!!!
So.....I've seen Bob Seger!, Willie Nelson!, and NOW I get to see Stephen King!!
I'm going to make a shirt to wear!!
I <3 Stephen King
on the back, it may say,"I'm your #1 Fan!" (SK book, Misery)
That's all I really have to say right now. Not a lot going on.
Just working, working, working.
Trying to make that money for Christmas. :)
I hope my blog friends are well. Hopefully I'll find time to write more and catch up with what's been going on in your lives.
:)
Friday, October 21, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
Fill in the blank Friday
fill in the blank friday time. It's been a while since I've participated in this!
You should PLAY ALONG!!
1. The best thing I did all week was:
I have done nothing this week, but work.work.work. :/
2. The smell of honeysuckle
:makes me super happy.
3. Pets are:
ok, if they're outside.
4. My boys
:are the best thing about my life.
5. With the cooler weather I am looking forward to:
snuggling up in bed, with the blowdryer blowing on my feet, while reading some good books!!
6. Something that's on my "wish list" right now is:
some new curtains. The stupid kittens have torn my all to hell.
7. This weekend I am going to:
work, work, work. I'm going to try to make my friend's funeral, but it's in Austin. :( If I can't make it, then a lot of his friends that can't make it are getting together. So, I may do that. If I'm up to it....
You should PLAY ALONG!!
1. The best thing I did all week was:
I have done nothing this week, but work.work.work. :/
2. The smell of honeysuckle
:makes me super happy.
3. Pets are:
ok, if they're outside.
4. My boys
:are the best thing about my life.
5. With the cooler weather I am looking forward to:
snuggling up in bed, with the blowdryer blowing on my feet, while reading some good books!!
6. Something that's on my "wish list" right now is:
some new curtains. The stupid kittens have torn my all to hell.
7. This weekend I am going to:
work, work, work. I'm going to try to make my friend's funeral, but it's in Austin. :( If I can't make it, then a lot of his friends that can't make it are getting together. So, I may do that. If I'm up to it....
Monday, September 19, 2011
The Dance
Dear Boo,
We have been friends since the 4th grade. I remember you always wearing your heavy metal band tees, with your long hair.
Our backyards were just across the alley from eachother. We would walk the neighborhood being silly, playing, causing trouble, breaking into empty houses and making them our hideout.
I remember staying out late, sitting under the streetlamps, talking about anything and everything.
We were friends up into junior high.
I made new friends, you made new friends...but we stayed friends.
You and your friends were a little more advanced than I was. Experiementing with alcohol, pot...not my thing.
But you never made me feel "uncool" or did anything around me that would make me feel uncomfortable.
We became like magnets somewhere along the way, drawn to eachother. Anytime we were near eachother, we couldn't keep our hands off eachother. It wasn't in a sexual way, but just drawn to eachother. We always sat right next to eachother, one of us would have our legs propped up on the other. Or we'd sit in the recliner together, legs wrapped up together. Like we couldn't get close enough. Even if we were "seeing" someone else. We were best friends.
Magnets, that's all I can compare it to.
Remember the night me and Sam snuck out to come over to your house? We watched "Drop Dead Fred" and "Killer Klowns from Outer Space". You made fun of me because I was seriously scared of the clowns. They were creepy!!
Aferwards, we all went in your room to listen to music and talk. We were still just in junior high. But we layed in your bed talking in the dark, listening to music, feet again tangled in eachother. We woke up the next morning at 6 a.m., Sam and I had to sneak out of your window and walk home. We were just praying we wouldn't get caught. We didn't, but I ended up telling my mom about it anyways. Because she knew we were just friends.
The joke after that...what we told people, was that we had slept together. Because in reality, we had SLEPT right next to eachother. Silly kids.
Within the next few weeks, we talked and thought...why don't we try it out as a couple? We get along great, we love eachother, we're best friends, we make eachother laugh.
So, we did it! We were "going out". Some of our friends didn't like it. Mutual friends and seperate friends. It bothered me a little, but not you. You asked me whose life I was living? Theirs or mine? Who am I responsible for making happy? Them or me?
Oh, you wise one...way beyond your years! ;)
Do you remember that one night...when we were "going out" and I was at your house. We were hanging out in the backyard, listening to the radio. You were about to walk me home.....across the alley to my backyard, we stood up and were hugging and Garth Brooks came on. The Dance.
And we slow danced....(swayed back and forth hugging) under the stars.
It was our song. Not really, but over the years and until today, it always reminds me of you and that night.
Of course, two weeks later, we decided that we were better off as friends.
Weird, but nothing seemed to change...between the time that we were friends, to "boyfriend and girlfriend" to back just being friends. Nothing ever changed...just the "title" of the relationship.
Of course, we stayed friends....all the up into high school.
We may have went weeks without talking or hanging out, but all one had to do was pick up the phone and give the other a call. There we'd be...right where we left off from last time....and we'd talk on the phone for over 2 hours. We'd sometimes fall asleep talking to eachother on the phone.
Now, I'm not saying we didn't have our arguments. I'm sure we did. Although I can't really recall many.
One time we got into it was because I asked you to go to church with me one weekend. We never went, but there was one right down the road. I was like...why not? Let's check it out. You said, no...you were an atheist.
I said you couldn't be an atheist, because I wasn't an atheist. And I was going to heaven one day and I wanted YOU there with me!! I told you you'd be so sad in hell without me, too! And you said,"Stephanie, I'm atheist, therefore if I don't believe in heaven, I don't believe in hell". Well, aren't you so clever. We agreed to disagree on that subject.
Remember the craziness of when we were 16?
I had just started seeing Gage's dad. You said he was cool, but I could do so much better.
I said it wasn't anything serious. We were just hanging out.
One day you asked me to come over and hang out. So, I went to your apartment, we decided to go see "Wayne's World 2".
Man, we loved Wayne's World! So, we went to see it and then for some reason, went back to my house to hang out.
We were in my room watching "The Real World" on MTV...back when it was cool, ya know?
And I don't know what came over us, but out of no where, we started making out! Why?? Why did we do that? I still have no idea. But....you were seriously, like so close...to being my first. THAT'S how CLOSE we were.
Luckily the phone rang...and it was my mom. When I hung up I sat there staring at the tv. You sat up and we looked at eachother...and we were both like....what the hell was that?!? You drove me back to your house so I could pick up my car. You told me to stop by tomorrow.
The next day, when I stopped by we laughed about it and agreed that it was just a huge mistake. About as huge as the hickey I had left on your neck!!
With anyone else...it would've been weird. It would've changed any kind of friendship I had...because in the years to come...that kind of thing happened a few more times. And it got weird.
But it never did for us. We were still us.
It was just another story for us to laugh about later on down the road.
You moved a few times before we graduated.
But we stayed in touch, still talking on the phone for hours at a time.
When you came in town you always made time to see me. I would get a babysitter for Gage and we would just drive all over town, talking.
I wonder how we never ran out of things to say?
Within the last 10 years, we grew apart. Only staying in touch through emails.
You moved from place to place. Arizona, Las Vegas, Austin.
You finally settled down in Dallas, you got married, had a kid.
A couple years went past. We even lost touch. But I always thought about you. And wondered how you were.
Then out of no where I got a call from you. You were in town and wanted to meet up for a drink.
By that time I was a single mom, raising two boys. It was just too late for me to find someone to watch my kids, so I passed.
But we started up talking again...staying in touch.
Through emails, of course.
We always laughed about how things change and we were now talking about work and kids.
Last year, I sent you an email. Just telling you I was thinking about you and I missed you. That I hoped you were doing ok.
You emailed me back and told me thanks, that it felt good to hear from me. You asked for my number, so we could catch up.
The next day you called me. And we talked for a long time. Not hours like we used to, but longer than I find myself on the phone now days.
You confided in me that your wife left you. You were having a hard time with it. You wanted to meet up next time you were in town. Get some drinks and talk. You said you would be down in a couple weekends. I said that was great, I'd be sure to have a sitter, so we could hang.
Over the next two weeks, you called me everyday. Numerous times a day.
I started ignoring your calls.
The thing is, Boo, people change. I was no longer that girl that would sit on the phone for hours and talk. I was a single mom, raising two boys on my own.
I had problems of my own. I didn't have the free time I once had.
In fact, I had turned into this person that pushed people away. I was tired of being dependent others and even more tired of people being dependent on me.
I decided that all I wanted it to be was me and my boys. I was going to live for them and do it on my own. I had no time for others.
But when you first called me, I thought, he's my oldest friend ever. I have to make time for him. Then the phone calls came and I started feeling this neediness from you that I didn't like. I just couldn't handle it, not at that point in my life.
I blew you off. I stopped answering your calls, your texts, your emails.
Then one day, you gave up.
I thought...thank God!! He was getting so annoying!!
You deleted me as your friend on Facebook. I didn't care.
Then one night I had a dream about you. I guess you had been in the back of my mind. I knew I should've been there for you. You were going through enough, I shouldn't have done that.
I started feeling guilty, I had a heavy heart.
I wanted to apologize so bad, but I didn't know how. I didn't know where to being.
I thought about it for months.
And then.....three weeks ago, you asked to be my friend on Facebook again.
I was so relieved and worried at the same time. I knew now was my chance to tell you how sorry I was.
It took me a few days, but I finally messaged you.
It felt so good to tell you how ashamed I was of myself for not being the friend to you that you always were to me. I knew if I had just taken the time to see you, and explain to you what was going on in my life at that moment...you would've been there for me again...even if you were going through a hard divorce.
That's just the kind of guy you are.
When you (immediately) wrote me back, I cried reading your message to me.
You thanked me for writing you. You said that you were going through a lot at the time, but you knew I was too. You said it was all in the past. We've been friends too long to let something so small get in the way of what we've always had.
Way to make me feel worse, jerkface!
So, Boo....Saturday night, I took Zac to stay the night at his nana's. Gage was, of course, off with his friends, as always.
I didn't really have anything to do, so I decided to go work my part time job for a couple hours. I worked from about 6 p.m. to 8:30 p.m. It was kinda scary, being in the dark doctor's office all alone at night!
Then it started storming, really bad. When I left, it was raining so hard, I could barely see out the windshield. My drive home was slow. Usually a 15 minute drive anyways...turned out to be about 30 minutes.
I thought about you, Boo. On that drive home. I thought that sometime this week, I'd write you. See if you were coming to town the coming up weekend. Zac would be with his dad, Gage...well, off with friends, of course.
I thought I'd see if you'd come in town, we could grab that drink. Talk about old times.
It brought a smile to my face, just thinking about it. I, too, could use an old friend right about now.
Sunday morning, I woke up. I picked up Zac from his nana's. We went to the grocery store. I cleaned house.
I sat down to watch a movie I had recorded, "Hereafter".
I wonder if you've seen this movie.....
I thought, if Matt Damon were to touch me...who would he see? Would there be anyone that cared enough to have something to say to me?
Zac came running in the living room, wanting something to eat. I pushed pause and made him some chicken noodle soup.
I sat back down and thought I'd get caught up on all my Words With Friends games I had going.
Then of course, I had to check Facebook.
And I saw it.
From Adrien to Boo....a sweet message, asking where you've gone...asking for it not to be true...saying that you will be missed.
I called Adrien and could barely understand the sobbing. I said,"No! What happened?"
We cried for you, Boo.
You're only 11 days older than me. You're too young to be gone.
I thought about you all night. I fell asleep crying for you.
Wishing I had seen you one last time.
Wishing I had gotten one last hug.
Wishing I were there for you when you needed me most.
I love you, Boo.
For you:
Our song....
The Dance. how fitting.
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
Rest in Peace Patrick Michael Bertram aka Boo.
02/05/1978-09/17/2011
We have been friends since the 4th grade. I remember you always wearing your heavy metal band tees, with your long hair.
Our backyards were just across the alley from eachother. We would walk the neighborhood being silly, playing, causing trouble, breaking into empty houses and making them our hideout.
I remember staying out late, sitting under the streetlamps, talking about anything and everything.
We were friends up into junior high.
I made new friends, you made new friends...but we stayed friends.
You and your friends were a little more advanced than I was. Experiementing with alcohol, pot...not my thing.
But you never made me feel "uncool" or did anything around me that would make me feel uncomfortable.
We became like magnets somewhere along the way, drawn to eachother. Anytime we were near eachother, we couldn't keep our hands off eachother. It wasn't in a sexual way, but just drawn to eachother. We always sat right next to eachother, one of us would have our legs propped up on the other. Or we'd sit in the recliner together, legs wrapped up together. Like we couldn't get close enough. Even if we were "seeing" someone else. We were best friends.
Magnets, that's all I can compare it to.
Remember the night me and Sam snuck out to come over to your house? We watched "Drop Dead Fred" and "Killer Klowns from Outer Space". You made fun of me because I was seriously scared of the clowns. They were creepy!!
Aferwards, we all went in your room to listen to music and talk. We were still just in junior high. But we layed in your bed talking in the dark, listening to music, feet again tangled in eachother. We woke up the next morning at 6 a.m., Sam and I had to sneak out of your window and walk home. We were just praying we wouldn't get caught. We didn't, but I ended up telling my mom about it anyways. Because she knew we were just friends.
The joke after that...what we told people, was that we had slept together. Because in reality, we had SLEPT right next to eachother. Silly kids.
Within the next few weeks, we talked and thought...why don't we try it out as a couple? We get along great, we love eachother, we're best friends, we make eachother laugh.
So, we did it! We were "going out". Some of our friends didn't like it. Mutual friends and seperate friends. It bothered me a little, but not you. You asked me whose life I was living? Theirs or mine? Who am I responsible for making happy? Them or me?
Oh, you wise one...way beyond your years! ;)
Do you remember that one night...when we were "going out" and I was at your house. We were hanging out in the backyard, listening to the radio. You were about to walk me home.....across the alley to my backyard, we stood up and were hugging and Garth Brooks came on. The Dance.
And we slow danced....(swayed back and forth hugging) under the stars.
It was our song. Not really, but over the years and until today, it always reminds me of you and that night.
Of course, two weeks later, we decided that we were better off as friends.
Weird, but nothing seemed to change...between the time that we were friends, to "boyfriend and girlfriend" to back just being friends. Nothing ever changed...just the "title" of the relationship.
Of course, we stayed friends....all the up into high school.
We may have went weeks without talking or hanging out, but all one had to do was pick up the phone and give the other a call. There we'd be...right where we left off from last time....and we'd talk on the phone for over 2 hours. We'd sometimes fall asleep talking to eachother on the phone.
Now, I'm not saying we didn't have our arguments. I'm sure we did. Although I can't really recall many.
One time we got into it was because I asked you to go to church with me one weekend. We never went, but there was one right down the road. I was like...why not? Let's check it out. You said, no...you were an atheist.
I said you couldn't be an atheist, because I wasn't an atheist. And I was going to heaven one day and I wanted YOU there with me!! I told you you'd be so sad in hell without me, too! And you said,"Stephanie, I'm atheist, therefore if I don't believe in heaven, I don't believe in hell". Well, aren't you so clever. We agreed to disagree on that subject.
Remember the craziness of when we were 16?
I had just started seeing Gage's dad. You said he was cool, but I could do so much better.
I said it wasn't anything serious. We were just hanging out.
One day you asked me to come over and hang out. So, I went to your apartment, we decided to go see "Wayne's World 2".
Man, we loved Wayne's World! So, we went to see it and then for some reason, went back to my house to hang out.
We were in my room watching "The Real World" on MTV...back when it was cool, ya know?
And I don't know what came over us, but out of no where, we started making out! Why?? Why did we do that? I still have no idea. But....you were seriously, like so close...to being my first. THAT'S how CLOSE we were.
Luckily the phone rang...and it was my mom. When I hung up I sat there staring at the tv. You sat up and we looked at eachother...and we were both like....what the hell was that?!? You drove me back to your house so I could pick up my car. You told me to stop by tomorrow.
The next day, when I stopped by we laughed about it and agreed that it was just a huge mistake. About as huge as the hickey I had left on your neck!!
With anyone else...it would've been weird. It would've changed any kind of friendship I had...because in the years to come...that kind of thing happened a few more times. And it got weird.
But it never did for us. We were still us.
It was just another story for us to laugh about later on down the road.
You moved a few times before we graduated.
But we stayed in touch, still talking on the phone for hours at a time.
When you came in town you always made time to see me. I would get a babysitter for Gage and we would just drive all over town, talking.
I wonder how we never ran out of things to say?
Within the last 10 years, we grew apart. Only staying in touch through emails.
You moved from place to place. Arizona, Las Vegas, Austin.
You finally settled down in Dallas, you got married, had a kid.
A couple years went past. We even lost touch. But I always thought about you. And wondered how you were.
Then out of no where I got a call from you. You were in town and wanted to meet up for a drink.
By that time I was a single mom, raising two boys. It was just too late for me to find someone to watch my kids, so I passed.
But we started up talking again...staying in touch.
Through emails, of course.
We always laughed about how things change and we were now talking about work and kids.
Last year, I sent you an email. Just telling you I was thinking about you and I missed you. That I hoped you were doing ok.
You emailed me back and told me thanks, that it felt good to hear from me. You asked for my number, so we could catch up.
The next day you called me. And we talked for a long time. Not hours like we used to, but longer than I find myself on the phone now days.
You confided in me that your wife left you. You were having a hard time with it. You wanted to meet up next time you were in town. Get some drinks and talk. You said you would be down in a couple weekends. I said that was great, I'd be sure to have a sitter, so we could hang.
Over the next two weeks, you called me everyday. Numerous times a day.
I started ignoring your calls.
The thing is, Boo, people change. I was no longer that girl that would sit on the phone for hours and talk. I was a single mom, raising two boys on my own.
I had problems of my own. I didn't have the free time I once had.
In fact, I had turned into this person that pushed people away. I was tired of being dependent others and even more tired of people being dependent on me.
I decided that all I wanted it to be was me and my boys. I was going to live for them and do it on my own. I had no time for others.
But when you first called me, I thought, he's my oldest friend ever. I have to make time for him. Then the phone calls came and I started feeling this neediness from you that I didn't like. I just couldn't handle it, not at that point in my life.
I blew you off. I stopped answering your calls, your texts, your emails.
Then one day, you gave up.
I thought...thank God!! He was getting so annoying!!
You deleted me as your friend on Facebook. I didn't care.
Then one night I had a dream about you. I guess you had been in the back of my mind. I knew I should've been there for you. You were going through enough, I shouldn't have done that.
I started feeling guilty, I had a heavy heart.
I wanted to apologize so bad, but I didn't know how. I didn't know where to being.
I thought about it for months.
And then.....three weeks ago, you asked to be my friend on Facebook again.
I was so relieved and worried at the same time. I knew now was my chance to tell you how sorry I was.
It took me a few days, but I finally messaged you.
It felt so good to tell you how ashamed I was of myself for not being the friend to you that you always were to me. I knew if I had just taken the time to see you, and explain to you what was going on in my life at that moment...you would've been there for me again...even if you were going through a hard divorce.
That's just the kind of guy you are.
When you (immediately) wrote me back, I cried reading your message to me.
You thanked me for writing you. You said that you were going through a lot at the time, but you knew I was too. You said it was all in the past. We've been friends too long to let something so small get in the way of what we've always had.
Way to make me feel worse, jerkface!
So, Boo....Saturday night, I took Zac to stay the night at his nana's. Gage was, of course, off with his friends, as always.
I didn't really have anything to do, so I decided to go work my part time job for a couple hours. I worked from about 6 p.m. to 8:30 p.m. It was kinda scary, being in the dark doctor's office all alone at night!
Then it started storming, really bad. When I left, it was raining so hard, I could barely see out the windshield. My drive home was slow. Usually a 15 minute drive anyways...turned out to be about 30 minutes.
I thought about you, Boo. On that drive home. I thought that sometime this week, I'd write you. See if you were coming to town the coming up weekend. Zac would be with his dad, Gage...well, off with friends, of course.
I thought I'd see if you'd come in town, we could grab that drink. Talk about old times.
It brought a smile to my face, just thinking about it. I, too, could use an old friend right about now.
Sunday morning, I woke up. I picked up Zac from his nana's. We went to the grocery store. I cleaned house.
I sat down to watch a movie I had recorded, "Hereafter".
I wonder if you've seen this movie.....
I thought, if Matt Damon were to touch me...who would he see? Would there be anyone that cared enough to have something to say to me?
Zac came running in the living room, wanting something to eat. I pushed pause and made him some chicken noodle soup.
I sat back down and thought I'd get caught up on all my Words With Friends games I had going.
Then of course, I had to check Facebook.
And I saw it.
From Adrien to Boo....a sweet message, asking where you've gone...asking for it not to be true...saying that you will be missed.
I called Adrien and could barely understand the sobbing. I said,"No! What happened?"
We cried for you, Boo.
You're only 11 days older than me. You're too young to be gone.
I thought about you all night. I fell asleep crying for you.
Wishing I had seen you one last time.
Wishing I had gotten one last hug.
Wishing I were there for you when you needed me most.
I love you, Boo.
For you:
Our song....
The Dance. how fitting.
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
Rest in Peace Patrick Michael Bertram aka Boo.
02/05/1978-09/17/2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
Man Candy Monday: Dermot Mulroney
Meet my Man Candy Monday man: Durmot Mulroney!!!!
Durmot Mulroney is one of my favorite actors! He's been in so many of my favorite movies!!
One of the movies I used to watch over and over again when I was about Gage's age was:
"Where the Day Takes You"
King: "It's 98.6 over here, baby."
It's been so long since I've seen this movie! I need to watch it again!
When I was looking for a picture for this movie, I saw Will Smith on the cover, I was confused!
I don't remember him being in this movie!! That's how long it's been since I've seen it.
So good.
Durmot Mulroney plays King. It's about a bunch of homeless kids, just trying to make it out on the streets.
Point of No Return
This is a great movie! Bridget Fonda plays a drug addict, she robs a pharmacy for drugs, and kills a cop. She's sentenced to death, but is saved....to become a government assassin.
Eventually she has to live a (somewhat) normal life.
So, she goes on the hunt for a place to rent.
JP (Dermot) happens to have an apartment for rent!
(Why are all my landlords old and creepy? So not fair! I want a Durmot landlord! just saying.)
sexy.
A movie I didn't really care to see, but had to (because Dermot's in it!) was:
Georgia Rule
Dermot plays the sexy doctor Simon.
It's one of those movies that's pretty good, but you just don't care to see it again. :)
Another movie I watched ALLLLL the time was Young Guns.
The reason I watched this over and over was because I was a HUGE Kiefer Sutherland fan. He was my very first celebrity crush!
But I loved Dermot Mulroney in this movie. He played Dirty Steve!
Dirty Steve: "He ain't all there, is he?"
wonderful cast!
Ohhhh, Copycat!!! I love this movie!! Plus Holly Hunter!! How can you not love Holly Hunter?
Mulroney plays the sexy woman magnet detective Ruben. Yum.
Of course, Michael.
Sweet Michael in
My Best Friend's Wedding
LOVE IT!
Marianne and I would watch this and fast forward to all of our favorite parts.
and then there's Everett in:
The Family Stone
Another movie of his, that I liked a lot, but not really one I would watch over and over again.
But I DID watch him play Kyle in
The Thing Called Love
over and over again.
Kyle: Okay, okay. Uh, sometimes you hear a song on the radio and it's just the song you want to hear right then, and then it's over and you're just glad you heard it.
Miranda Presley: And I'm like that song?
Kyle Davidson: No, you're nothing like that song. You're like if that was the only song in the world that I could hear for the rest of my life. You're that song.
I admit this movie pretty much sucks. BUT, it has Dermot Mulroney, River Phoenix, Sandra Bullock! Hello! How can you not love that?
The Wedding Date.
YES! Sexy male escort, Nick.
Nick: "I'd rather fight with you, than make love with anyone else."
Yes, Durmot Mulroney. He's my man crush this week.
So freaking sexy! :)
Durmot Mulroney is one of my favorite actors! He's been in so many of my favorite movies!!
One of the movies I used to watch over and over again when I was about Gage's age was:
"Where the Day Takes You"
King: "It's 98.6 over here, baby."
It's been so long since I've seen this movie! I need to watch it again!
When I was looking for a picture for this movie, I saw Will Smith on the cover, I was confused!
I don't remember him being in this movie!! That's how long it's been since I've seen it.
So good.
Durmot Mulroney plays King. It's about a bunch of homeless kids, just trying to make it out on the streets.
Point of No Return
This is a great movie! Bridget Fonda plays a drug addict, she robs a pharmacy for drugs, and kills a cop. She's sentenced to death, but is saved....to become a government assassin.
Eventually she has to live a (somewhat) normal life.
So, she goes on the hunt for a place to rent.
JP (Dermot) happens to have an apartment for rent!
(Why are all my landlords old and creepy? So not fair! I want a Durmot landlord! just saying.)
sexy.A movie I didn't really care to see, but had to (because Dermot's in it!) was:
Georgia Rule
Dermot plays the sexy doctor Simon.
It's one of those movies that's pretty good, but you just don't care to see it again. :)
Another movie I watched ALLLLL the time was Young Guns.
The reason I watched this over and over was because I was a HUGE Kiefer Sutherland fan. He was my very first celebrity crush!
But I loved Dermot Mulroney in this movie. He played Dirty Steve!
Dirty Steve: "He ain't all there, is he?"
wonderful cast!
Ohhhh, Copycat!!! I love this movie!! Plus Holly Hunter!! How can you not love Holly Hunter?
Mulroney plays the sexy woman magnet detective Ruben. Yum.
Of course, Michael.
Sweet Michael in
My Best Friend's Wedding
LOVE IT!
Marianne and I would watch this and fast forward to all of our favorite parts.
and then there's Everett in:
The Family Stone
Another movie of his, that I liked a lot, but not really one I would watch over and over again.But I DID watch him play Kyle in
The Thing Called Love
over and over again.
Kyle: Okay, okay. Uh, sometimes you hear a song on the radio and it's just the song you want to hear right then, and then it's over and you're just glad you heard it.
Miranda Presley: And I'm like that song?
Kyle Davidson: No, you're nothing like that song. You're like if that was the only song in the world that I could hear for the rest of my life. You're that song.
I admit this movie pretty much sucks. BUT, it has Dermot Mulroney, River Phoenix, Sandra Bullock! Hello! How can you not love that?
The Wedding Date.
YES! Sexy male escort, Nick.
Nick: "I'd rather fight with you, than make love with anyone else."
Yes, Durmot Mulroney. He's my man crush this week.
So freaking sexy! :)
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
postsecret
I can relate to this one.
I felt like I grew up too fast...
but at the same time, I don't feel like I'm 33 years old!!
Funny thing about this postcard:
I went to talk to my somewhat therapist, he prescribes my medication anyways....and we talk.
The last time I saw him was 2 weeks ago today.
While we were talking, I started crying, and then he started crying!!
Granted we've known eachother for years, but it still took me by surprise.
Of all the years I've known him, I've never seen him get emotional.
It kinda made me feel bad.
But at the same time, it felt nice to see that someone understood how I was feeling. :)
I felt like I grew up too fast...
but at the same time, I don't feel like I'm 33 years old!!
Funny thing about this postcard:
I went to talk to my somewhat therapist, he prescribes my medication anyways....and we talk.
The last time I saw him was 2 weeks ago today.
While we were talking, I started crying, and then he started crying!!
Granted we've known eachother for years, but it still took me by surprise.
Of all the years I've known him, I've never seen him get emotional.
It kinda made me feel bad.
But at the same time, it felt nice to see that someone understood how I was feeling. :)
Monday, August 29, 2011
One of THOSE days.....
So, I woke up feeling quite awake...all on my own this morning. Weird, before my alarm went off? I feel AWAKE!
So, I look at my phone....yes, it's 5:55 in the morning and my phone has the snooze option up.
WHAT?!?!?! My alarm has been going off and there is NO sound?!?
4:15 a.m. That's what time my alarm is set for.
5:15 a.m. That's what time I walk out the door each morning.
5:30 a.m. That's what time I clock in each morning.
FIVE FIFTY FIVE!!! That's what time I woke up this morning.
My day is ruined!
I clocked in this morning at 6:15 a.m.
I woke up at 5:55 a.m.
You do the math.
My scrub pants and top don't match.
They're the same color, but they don't go together.
I'm not wearing deodorant.
My hair is up in a greasy pony tail.
I'm still wiping sleep from my eyes.
Oh, did I mention I didn't brush my teeth?
Sorry, patients! :)
And I didn't put socks on.
Do you know how disgusting it feels to wear tennis shoes with no socks.
So I stole some patients socks we use in the back.....
Sexy, right?
Yep, that's my day so far!!!
This weekend I was doing my Saturday major cleaning ritual. I start at the back of the house and work my way to the other end.
So, I always start in my bathroom. It gets pretty messy, since Zac HAS to bathe in MY bathtub!
Toys everywhere! Soggy, slimy soap stuck to the bottom of the tub!
Shampoo collected around the bottom of the bottle.
I scrubbed my tub, cleaned my bathroom really good, then moved on to my bedroom.
Then the kitchen.
Then I went back to my bathroom to put towels up.
The shampoo was collected around the bottom of the bottle again!!
What the hell?? I just cleaned that!!
Upon further examination, this is what I found:
My sweet Zac thought it would be funny to get a safety pin and poke three holes in my shampoo bottle!
little shit.
Did I mention my BWF is quitting?
*sad face*
BWF stands for Best Worker Friend.
I just made that up :)
She's a stupid hooker.
And she will be missed.
So, I look at my phone....yes, it's 5:55 in the morning and my phone has the snooze option up.
WHAT?!?!?! My alarm has been going off and there is NO sound?!?
4:15 a.m. That's what time my alarm is set for.
5:15 a.m. That's what time I walk out the door each morning.
5:30 a.m. That's what time I clock in each morning.
FIVE FIFTY FIVE!!! That's what time I woke up this morning.
My day is ruined!
I clocked in this morning at 6:15 a.m.
I woke up at 5:55 a.m.
You do the math.
My scrub pants and top don't match.
They're the same color, but they don't go together.
I'm not wearing deodorant.
My hair is up in a greasy pony tail.
I'm still wiping sleep from my eyes.
Oh, did I mention I didn't brush my teeth?
Sorry, patients! :)
And I didn't put socks on.
Do you know how disgusting it feels to wear tennis shoes with no socks.
So I stole some patients socks we use in the back.....
Sexy, right?
Yep, that's my day so far!!!
This weekend I was doing my Saturday major cleaning ritual. I start at the back of the house and work my way to the other end.
So, I always start in my bathroom. It gets pretty messy, since Zac HAS to bathe in MY bathtub!
Toys everywhere! Soggy, slimy soap stuck to the bottom of the tub!
Shampoo collected around the bottom of the bottle.
I scrubbed my tub, cleaned my bathroom really good, then moved on to my bedroom.
Then the kitchen.
Then I went back to my bathroom to put towels up.
The shampoo was collected around the bottom of the bottle again!!
What the hell?? I just cleaned that!!
Upon further examination, this is what I found:
My sweet Zac thought it would be funny to get a safety pin and poke three holes in my shampoo bottle!
little shit.
Did I mention my BWF is quitting?
*sad face*
BWF stands for Best Worker Friend.
I just made that up :)
She's a stupid hooker.
And she will be missed.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Fill in the blank FRIDAY!!
1. One of life's most simple pleasures is laying in bed, reading a good book.
2. Laundry makes me want to punch someone.
3. I like Alexander Skarsgard a.k.a. Eric Northman of True Blood because, ....look below.
yum.
4. Belly button is a funny word.
5. If I had to choose one beauty product to use for the rest of eternity it would be I don't really know a lot about beauty products. I'm kind of a "roll outta bed and hit the road" type girl. But I guess I try to wear eyeliner...so I don't look too tired. But as for a certain brand...I don't know. It's just whatever.
6. I'm happy that my boys are (currently) loving school!
7. I would never say never. Because the minute you say it....it's all over!
Friday, August 19, 2011
Meet the Teacher!
When I was married, we lived in a small town outside of Wichita Falls. Gage went to school there from kindergarten to 4th grade.
He was sad when we moved away, but he stayed friends with a lot of the kids.
It was a good school and he's been asking me to let him go back for a long time now.
So, this year I enrolled him and Zac.
Last night was "Meet the Teacher" night.
Gage was excited, Zac not so much. :)
But once we got there and Zac met his new teacher, he started getting excited!
His teacher was so nice and the kids were already introducing themselves to him.
yay!
So, as we were leaving I was telling Zac about how much fun he's going to have and how he's going to meet so many new friends!!
And he stops and says, "Ok, quit trying to oversell it, Drama Queen".
haha.
When we left, we decided to stop and eat at the only restaurant in that little town...Dairy Queen.
Gage was excited because he has a few classes with some of his friends.
Zac was excited to meet new friends.
Zac said, "I wish it was Sunday already!"
Wow.
My boys have NEVER been so ready for school to start.
It makes me happy that they're so ready!
In fact, they were so cute and happy I had to take a picture!
Look at my beautiful boys!! I love them so much! :)
He was sad when we moved away, but he stayed friends with a lot of the kids.
It was a good school and he's been asking me to let him go back for a long time now.
So, this year I enrolled him and Zac.
Last night was "Meet the Teacher" night.
Gage was excited, Zac not so much. :)
But once we got there and Zac met his new teacher, he started getting excited!
His teacher was so nice and the kids were already introducing themselves to him.
yay!
So, as we were leaving I was telling Zac about how much fun he's going to have and how he's going to meet so many new friends!!
And he stops and says, "Ok, quit trying to oversell it, Drama Queen".
haha.
When we left, we decided to stop and eat at the only restaurant in that little town...Dairy Queen.
Gage was excited because he has a few classes with some of his friends.
Zac was excited to meet new friends.
Zac said, "I wish it was Sunday already!"
Wow.
My boys have NEVER been so ready for school to start.
It makes me happy that they're so ready!
In fact, they were so cute and happy I had to take a picture!
Look at my beautiful boys!! I love them so much! :)
Thursday, August 18, 2011
THE Sexy Patrick Swayze!!
Happy Birthday, Patrick Swayze!!
Born August 18th 1952...in Houston, TEXAS.
Yeah, that's right...he's a Texan! :)
I miss you, Patrick Swayze! You were freaking awesome!
Some of my FAVORITE Patrick Swayze movies:
"The Outsiders"
of course. There were a few movies I watched at least twice a week when I was younger, and "The Outsiders" was one of them. I love the cast, I love the movie, I just love it.
"Ghost"
duh. The famous scene with Demi Moore! LOVE IT!!
I still cry EVERYtime I watch this movie!!
"Dirty Dancing"
I love watching Patrick Swayze dance!! My favorite scene is when they're in his cabin and she asks him to dance....and he's shirtless! His back is so sexy! :) You can see every muscle move, beautiful!
I may be a little embarrassed to admit this one, but I freaking LOVE
"Roadhouse"
It's one of those movies I absolutely HAVE to watch if it's on tv. It's just....wonderful. :)
And last, but definitely NOT least:
"Point Break"
I love this movie! Patrick Swayze is pretty hot as a blonde surfer boy, huh?
yum.
Ok, I'm sure you have all seen every single one of these movies. Because....you just have to have seen them! And if not, I suggest you get off your computer and go rent or buy these movies....immediately!
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