Big, hairy spider

I have now been off work for 11 days. I am so ready to get back to work!!
Come Tuesday, I may have a change of heart :)

My ankle is feeling better. I'm getting around better, with my big, black boot. It's really quite sexy, I assure you.

On the bright side....in addition to the scorpions, coyotes, and other lovely creatures I have come in contact with while living out in the country this past year, I can now add tarantulas to that list.
Seriously?
Tarantulas.
I'm usually a visual person, and I like to post pictures for my readers, so they can get the full effect of what I'm writing about. But I am sooooo deathly afraid of spiders, that when I tried to google a picture of a tarantula for you, I literally felt my chest tighten at the sight...so, I'm sure you've seen a tarantula before...you know what they look like.
If not, google it yourself.
They're big, hairy, fat, scary, jumping spiders. And I'm terrified of them. They're huge.

So far, I've seen two in the backyard, but my wonderful pit Beauty, took care of those. :)
But yesterday there was a LIVE one on my storage building in the front yard!!
It was creeping up the building with it's long, hairy legs.

UGH!!!

It may be time to move again. :)
Ok, not really. But I can only handle so much!

In the Mouth of Madness

This morning I could not see 2 feet in front of me. The fog was so thick, I had to drive like 30 mph. My road is very long and I couldn't see either side of the road. I felt like I was just driving and driving and never getting to the highway. Three different times a rabbit ran out in front of me. All three times coming from the drivers side. All three rabbits looked exactly alike.
I started thinking,"Oh my gosh. I'm in a Stephen King book! The same thing is going to keep happening over and over. The road is never going to end!" Yes, I read too many Stephen King books. But that's ok. Because while it's scary, it's oh so fun! :)
I finally got to the highway. There are NO lights along the highway. All I see are my headlights and the lines on the road.
This is where I really get scared, because I start thinking about the movie "In the Mouth of Madness". Have you ever seen this movie??
It's been years since I've seen it. There is one part that I remember very well. A guy driving down a dark road and he see what he thinks is a boy riding a bike down the middle of the road.
Scary.

When it he gets closer...even scarier....it's a boy with an old man face!!!
Oh my gosh!!! This movie scared me to death!! I haven't watched it since. But I may have to watch it again. I've forgotten what it's all about.


Leah KNOWS this part of the movie scares me. So, I'm focusing on driving in the fog at 5:20 in the morning, just me on the road...thinking about this scary man face, hoping I don't see anything...and my phone dings. I got a text message and I jumped so high, my heart was racing.
It was Leah. I texted her back and told her that I'm trying to pay attention; the fog is scary and she scared the crap out of me!
So, I drop off Gage at her house (he rides the bus from her house every morning) and I head to work. Then I get another text message from her.
It says:
Hope you don't see a little boy with long white hair and an old mans face riding a bike down the middle of the road by your work or in your parking lot.
UGH!!
She knows I open that freaking place! She knows it's just me for a while before anyone else shows up!!
She KNOWS this!!
I was scared. haha.
I finally got to work and briskly walked to the door, unlocked it, and went inside to turn the alarm off. I didn't run like I wanted to. Like I did when I went out that morning to start my car...I may have jumped out of the car and ran back into the house to shut and lock the door.
Anyways, I get to the time clock and realize I left my badge in the car.
Nuh-uh!!! No way! I'm not going back out there. haha. So, I left Brenda a note and told her I forgot my badge. :) When she got in, I told her the truth.
I'm a scaredy cat.
But man, it's fun to be scared! haha.

Oh...by the way...

More snow today. Lovely. Although it's really not as bad as last week. At least it's just snow, not snow on top of ice. So, remember me telling you about the man that was looking in my sister's window in broad daylight last week? Well, the night before last, her dog was barking and barking at 2:30 in the morning. She looked out the back door, didn't see anything. So, she went to look out the kitchen window...and there was a man standing beside her car. He crouched down and they had a staring contest. Finally he ducked down and took off. Scary. This has been happening a little too often. Last night we were watching a movie and the dog started barking. I jerked my head around and stared at Leah, wide eyed....she just laughed at me. I was just a little bit scared. :) I guess it was nothing though, because the dog stopped barking and we didn't hear either one of our alarms on our cars go off. Brenda at work said she should call the police department, just to tell them about the past couple weeks, so they could patrol the neighborhood. I concur. I'm so glad that I made it to work today. I cannot handle any more time off. Plus all my appointments and Zac's appointments are taking time out of work too! Zac's doctor appointments alone are breaking me, money wise!! Monday he had an eye appointment. Today he has a dentist appointment. Tomorrow we have his appointment to see about medication for his anxiety/ADHD. Therapy every 2 weeks. UGH! But I really can't complain because the therapy really seems to be helping! Although his wrist twisting has seemed to stop, he is now blinking non-stop. Which is why he had an eye appointment on Monday, but his vision is fine. I guess it's a new thing. Weird. His next therapy session is Tuesday, so we'll talk about his new tick. Friday I have to go to court for the 5 hundred millionth time! UGH! What is the point?? Five years and $23,000 + of back child support....there is really no reason. Oh well, at least I can say I'm doing my part. blah. The the week after next, I'm FINALLY taking Beauty to get her fixed. I can't handle puppies again!! I wanted to keep them all!! And I don't even like animals all that much :) Soooo, I seem to have accomplished the quitting smoking. I have not had a cigarette since September...something. My new goal, give up Dr Pepper. If you know me, you know this is REALLY going to be a challenge. More so than cigarettes I think. I started smoking when I was 15. I started my addiction to Dr Pepper at age 11. All I drink all day, everyday is Dr Pepper. I'm on day 2 of no Dr Pepper. I had a major head ache yesterday, but today I'm doing ok. :) Hopefully I can do this!

Snow no more. Please!!

Yay!! I'm at work today!! Granted it took me 45 minutes to get here this morning...but it was worth it!! The only time I like to be cooped up in the house, missing work, is when it's by my own choice!! Not because I'm stuck there...and unable to leave. That just sucks!! I had to get out of the house yesterday, too!! I was going crazy! So, at about 12, I attempted (and succeeded) in picking up my boys and driving home. First I had to pick up Zac from his nana's, then Gage from his friend's house. Then we went home to check on and feed our poor dog, Beauty. But she was running around enjoying the snow. Idiot. :) I told Leah I would be back before dark. I just had to check on the dog and be home for a little bit. Plus, my phone was completely dead, so I had to charge it!! PLUS, I just needed out!! I was a nervous wreck driving, but it was still nice to be out and about!! Anywaysssss, we left the house at 6, to get back to Leah's before dark. Everytime I started to slide a little, Gage would start giggling. Finally, I was like..."GAGE! Shut up!! I can't concentrate!!" It took us an hour to get there!! Reeeeee-dic-you-lusss! So, when I got to Leah's she said that right after I left, Lucia, her friend, and Jack wanted to play in the snow. So, Dustin told Jack to wait until he got out of the shower and he would take him out. Lucia and her friend went ahead and went outside. They walked out of the front door, around the side of the house (to where the drive way is) and saw a man, leaning over the bushes, looking in their kitchen window! She looked at him and said,"What are you doing at my house?" and he walked away really fast. So she ran inside and told Leah that there was a man looking in the window. Leah asked her what he was wearing. She said he had on a black hoodie, sunglasses, jeans, Converse, and was carrying a pillow case! So, Leah told Dustin and he hopped out of the shower and went looking for the man. He found him in an alley a few blocks away and asked him what he was doing at his house, blah, blah, blah...threatened to shoot him if he saw him on his property again, blah, blah, blah. Haha, you know..the usual. But anyways, how freaking scary is that? A man in broad daylight....creeping around. Probably going to try to break into their cars or something. Needless to say, I had nightmares all night. Dreaming that someone was breaking into the house. Ugh. Overactive imagination, I have. And of course, I told Lucia not to try to be so brave next time. The man could've snatched her up and taken off. Ugh! Scary!!

Oh no, you didn't

Imagine...if you will....

You leave your sister's house to pick up your son from the movies....(date with his girlfriend).
That is a scary thing. Your 14 year old son on a date! haha.
But when you get back to your sister's house, you open the garage door and walk into the garage.
Hiding over to the side....you see something jerkily coming towards you...and it's this face...


Yeah. My sister looooves to scare me. I jumped and covered my face and yelled,"Good God, Almighty!!!" haha.

I, of course, did not get a picture of my sister in the mask, so I made Jack put it on...just so you could get a visual. :)
Yeah, my heart is still racing.

Help me, help me!!!

So, last Friday I was watching "Last House on the Left"...the new one. Have you seen it? It's pretty.....uh, disturbing. I may have blogged about it before, I'm not sure.

Anyways, Gage was at his friend Travis's house and Zac was with his dad.

It's almost 9:00 p.m., I'm watching Last House on the Left and decorating Christmas packages, and I hear a knock on my door! Whaaaat? Who could possibly be knocking at my door?

I live out in the middle of nowhere. It's dark. Beauty is in the backyard, barking.

I never have anyone just show up at my house, especially at that hour. Yes, I'm lame, everyone who knows me knows I go to bed super early!!

I slowly open the door and the first thing I see is a cop car.

Then I see a HUGE police officer. He was kinda scary looking. He has tattoos all over and one tattoo that stood out was the spiderweb on the elbow tattoo.

And I think.....one of my ex-boyfriends and his friends had that tattoo!

It's a trick! It's someone pretending to be a police officer, he's going to come through my door and...and....well, there's no telling what!!! And he could even really BE a cop...but a bad cop! I can only imagine! I watch Snapped! I watch Forensic Files! I watch Cold Case Files! I watch all those shows...I know being out in the middle of nowhere all alone...it's just something horrible waiting to happen!

So, he turns around as I'm opening the door and in his hand he has.....

wait for it

wait for it

wait for it.......

Court papers for my child support. Yes. I get to go to court AGAIN for the $22,000 Gage owes me for child support. He will not be there. What's the point in me going?

Of all the things I imagined that could happen to me....I never thought it would be that horrible!! haha.

just kidding.

But I did get scared when I heard the knock on the door!!

Cat's Eye

I'm a huge fan of Stephen King. Like, seriously. He's so awesome. I love his mind and the way it works. I love the way his stories stay with you. Sometimes they stay with you because they scare the crap out of you, but sometimes they stay with you just because they make you think.
I'll admit there have been a few of his books that have given me nightmares. Bag of Bones gave me nightmares for two weeks straight after reading it.
Gerald's Game left me laying awake in bed, staring into the darkness, wondering if something or someone was there...hidden. Pet Sematary scared me so bad, I had to get it out of my room. I hid it under my couch in the living room. I'm not kidding.
Why do I do that to myself? Because I absolutely love it! I love being scared!
So, when I was little I watched Stephen King's Cat's Eye with my mom and sister.
It scared me so bad! It's a film of 3 or 4 short movies. The one that scared me the most is about a little goblin thing that comes into a little girl's room (little girl played by Drew Barrymore) each night (through a hole that opens up in the wall), and tries to suck out her breath while she sleeps.

This is the scary little goblin. See the little bells at the end of his hat? When he's climbing up her comforter in the middle of the night, you can faintly hear them jingling.


Don't you just love Drew Barrymore? She was always so cute!
Anyway, this cat is in everyone of the short films. He shows up at Barrymore's house, she names him General. She wants to keep him, but mama says NO! She sneaks that kitty in without her mama knowing! And thank God she does, because General is there to save little Drew!!

Good stories! If you've never seen it, you should!

What got me thinking about Cat's Eye? Well, I woke up in the middle of the night. Do you ever do that? Wake up and feel like something woke you up, but you can't quite put your finger on what it was. Well, I did that. I was laying there, thinking....did Zac get up? Did someone knock on my door? Are the dogs barking?

So, I layed there a little longer, listening real hard. I didn't hear anything. So, I started drifting back to sleep. Then I heard a little jingle. And the Cat's Eye goblin came to mind. Oh my gosh! He's in my room! He woke me up by trying to suck the breath out of me!!

haha. Sounds retarded, right?

Well, I'll tell you what....it's not retarded at 12:45 a night! It's oh so real!

Today, it is silly. But I still wonder....what was that one little jingle in my room???

Happy Friday!!! :)

Here's a photo of my cute little puppies!!! They are almost 2 weeks old now! :)

They're just now opening their eyes! How freaking cute is that??

On another note......

Yesterday Zac's dad picked him up from school yesterday. So, I decided to go to Leah's to take a nap. Gage didn't get out of practice until 5 and I was exhausted.

So, I went to Lucia's room....her bed is so comfy! Full of blankets and pillows.....I turned on the blow dryer to blow on my feet. (I always do that when I lay down.)

Anyways, I was all comfortable....then I turn and what do I see??

This!

just staring at me.

I am scared to death of dolls. Seriously.

not cool.

Lucia, don't you think you're a little too old for dolls?

Gosh.

Just a Wee Bit

WEE BIT WEDNESDAY!

{one} have you ever seen a ghost?
Well, obviously.....
One night (when I was married) I woke in the middle of night and sat up in bed. I could see into the living room from my room. I saw Russ get up from the couch and walk past the bedroom door to the front door. I wondered what he was doing...if he heard something outside...
But then I realized, he was at the firestation, working. He wasn't even home!! I slowly got out of bed, tip toed to my door, peeked out....and saw nothing.
I jumped back in bed, covered up to my nose and eyeballed the living room for a long time before I fell back to sleep.
The end.

{two} when was the last time you dressed up for halloween?
The year before last. So, 2008. I was a flapper.

{three} what’s your favorite candy?
Oh, I don't know. I have to be in the mood to eat candy....and it's really not often that I am. But when I do want some, I usually want a Hershey bar and a jar of peanut butter to eat it with :)

{four} did you have a favorite costume growing up?
Yeah, a punk rocker! I was a punk rocker EVERY year when I was little. haha.

{five} did you carve pumpkins this year?
My boys and I carve pumpkins every year. We haven't yet this year though.....guess we better get started on that.

{six} what’s your favorite scary movie?
Ohhh, I have so many!! I love the scary, scary ones and I love the funny scary ones. I've always loved the Scream movies! I'm so excited to see Scream 4! Yes, they get more and more lame, the more they make...but that's the same with all sequels. I loved the first Scream and part 2 and part 3. I know I will love 4!
But I also love Paranormal Activity, The Strangers, The Omen, Rosemary's Baby, and of course, as mentioned in my previous post, Halloween.

{seven} haunted houses or corn mazes?
Haunted House!

{eight} are you superstitious?
I try not to be, but I catch myself sometimes. :)

{nine} have you ever owned a black cat?
We've owned every kind of cat you can imagine. Me and my sister used to find strays and bring them home!

{ten} what are you plans for this coming halloween?
Well, Saturday they're having a little carnival type thing (at the church) that they have every year. I usually take the boys with Leah and her kiddos. But apparently this year Gage is too old and Zac has a Halloween party to go to. :/
Sunday I am taking Zac trick or treating though! :)

I'm just sayin'.

Somebody call the wahhhh-mbulance, because I was having myself a little pity party earlier. ;)
What's scarier than living in the country, leaving your house at 5:15 in the morning, with coyotes howling in the distance.
Leaving your 'in the middle of nowhere' house at 5:15 in the morning, with coyotes howling in the distance,......along with a thick, scary fog...so thick you can't see even like, a foot in front of yourself.
Seriously.
I think I watch too many scary movies to be living so far out. haha. But I still love it. It is peaceful. As far as not having annoying neighbors knocking on my door everyday....and that type of thing.

Jauque's in-laws live down the road from me, so I've been getting to spend a little more time with her. She comes over a few times a week, which is nice. :)
Leah and the kiddos came out Monday night and we cooked dinner. It's nice to have a house that is big enough to have company :)

Well, I better get off the computer. It's about time to head to church! :)

Holllla! ;)

week end review....

This is my sexy Edward cut out that Marianne bought for me for my 30th birthday. :) I love it. When I first got it, it used to scare me when I walked into a room. Like someone was just standing in my room..haha. But now I'm used to it.

But Friday night, I took a shower and when I got out, Zac had moved Edward right in front of the bathroom door. haha. Scared the crap out of me! :) He thinks he's so funny.

Annnnd, here's my new coffee mug that I told you I would post a picture of!! I love it!! True Blood, baby!! haha, ok, maybe you're not as excited to see it as I am to show it....but you know, I LOVE True Blood!! So I was super excited when I found this!

My new purse, that I also said I would share. :) I just love Hastings. And I love Halloween time!!

Saturday night, Leah's friend, Adrien's daughter had a slumber party at a hotel. We went to hang out for a little bit. Zac with a bubble mustache, after getting out of the hot tub. :)

We had a pretty good time. Had some wine, talked while the kids played.

Sunday I took Gage, Zac, Lucia, and Jack to the park. :)

Gage, watching the kiddos play.

Jack was digging for sharks.......don't ask me!..

Lucia and Zac, playing...but stopped to pose, of course :)

Lucia got a perm Saturday! It is soooo cute. The make up is left over from the slumber party the night before. :)

Last night Gage stayed the night with his friend Andrew and Zac stayed the night with his cousin Anthony. They don't have school today and I had to work, of course...so...must be nice.

Anyways, I survived my very first thunderstorm at my new place....all by myself.

It was pretty scary!! The thunder was constant....like NO breaks in between. My bed was rattling from it. The wind was blowing like crazy and my electricity kept cutting out.

I was like...ok, I'm out in the middle of nowhere...with no phone service....no kids....no power. Kinda scary!!

Did I ever tell you that Beauty IS pregnant!! UGH!!!

I have to buy a dog house ASAP!!

It's about to start getting cold out. I don't want her and the little puppies freezing to death!!!

Yeah...so that's about it. I miss talking to you. Hopefully I'll have internet someday and we can keep in touch more often. :)