Big, hairy spider

I have now been off work for 11 days. I am so ready to get back to work!!
Come Tuesday, I may have a change of heart :)

My ankle is feeling better. I'm getting around better, with my big, black boot. It's really quite sexy, I assure you.

On the bright side....in addition to the scorpions, coyotes, and other lovely creatures I have come in contact with while living out in the country this past year, I can now add tarantulas to that list.
Seriously?
Tarantulas.
I'm usually a visual person, and I like to post pictures for my readers, so they can get the full effect of what I'm writing about. But I am sooooo deathly afraid of spiders, that when I tried to google a picture of a tarantula for you, I literally felt my chest tighten at the sight...so, I'm sure you've seen a tarantula before...you know what they look like.
If not, google it yourself.
They're big, hairy, fat, scary, jumping spiders. And I'm terrified of them. They're huge.

So far, I've seen two in the backyard, but my wonderful pit Beauty, took care of those. :)
But yesterday there was a LIVE one on my storage building in the front yard!!
It was creeping up the building with it's long, hairy legs.

UGH!!!

It may be time to move again. :)
Ok, not really. But I can only handle so much!

Happy Hump Day! :) Yes...I'm ready for the weekend! Imagine that.

Ok, so the storm has been here for a while...I'm just wondering when it will clear out.
I swear it's like, one thing after another.
But it's nothing I can't handle :)

So, I seem to be covered in some sort of rash/hives. I'm taking Benadryl (snore) and Predisone (a steroid, yay). UGH!
I'm so itchy. It sucks.

I'm bah-roke from all the doctor visits (for me & the boys) and medication! It's ridiculous.
Zac is having oral surgery this Friday. My poor baby.

Gage had a friend (Travis) stay the night earlier this week. They were outside playing baseball and Gage found a horny toad!





I can't remember the last time I saw a horny toad!!
Aren't they like...almost extinct?
Hmmmm...
Gage came home from drivers ed the other day with a new pick-up line.
Yes, apparently they don't just teach driving in drivers ed.
Once you have a license, and a vehicle (his has a truck already!), you have to know how to pick up the chicks.
So, Gage's new pick up line:
"Hey, don't we go to separate high schools together?"
Yeah....doesn't make any sense, but it's funny! :)
Oh, I'm so proud.

On to my Zackary.
Poor baby has to have oral surgery this Friday :/
I'm telling you....we are doctor/hospital bound lately!!

Here's a picture of Zac after riding the 4-wheeler with Gage out at my mom's.



Here's a tip for ya....Don't ride on the back of the 4-wheeler, facing the back, when riding on a lot dirt.
Your face WILL be covered in dirt!!
hahahaha.
Sneaky Zackary has also somehow convinced the teachers at the youth center that he's going into the 4th grade next year (he'll be in 3rd). That way he can hang out with the 4th grade and up, instead of the 3rd grade and under group.
Uhhh, sneaky little shit!!
He wasn't very happy with me yesterday when I called him out on it!! haha.
Sometimes he just cracks me up.

My favorite postcard this week on Postsecret......



Yep, my boys are definitely as weird as I am....and I'm ok with that! :)

Cigarette, please. :D

You know, it has been 55 days since my last cigarette. And if I'm being honest, I've wanted a cigarette just about every one of those 55 days. Whether it be the worrying over Zac and his doctor appointments, or the stresses of having a 14 year old son that is....well, acting like a typical 14 year old boy. Ya know, it could be I saw a woman smoking on tv and it made me want one. Point is!.......that I still want to smoke. I have dreams that I light a cigarette and take two drags and love it...then I'm just disappointed in myself for smoking after doing so well for so long! Ok, I got off track. I'm good at that. On with my story.....yesterday made me want to start smoking again. NOTHING makes me want to do something more, than when someone tells me I can't do it. Ridiculous!!! Them...NOT me! Here are some of the rules: No smoking in parking lots and/or driveways that are used by (my place of business) in any (mpob) vehicles Vehicles on property that is owned, leased or used by (mpob) All property, sidewalks and streets that are adjacent to (mpob) owned or leased property they want us to hand out informational cards to give employees/patients who are observed smoking on work property. Have to inform patients that leaving the campus while admitted will not be allowed. ....leaving campus while admitted is classified as leaving “against medical advice.” If you carpool to/from work, attend training classes or other work-related functions may not smoke in the vehicle with other employees present Not allowed to leave the workplace while “on the clock" hourly employees who leave work property(to smoke) must clock-out upon leaving and clock-in upon returning. Must refrain from using tobacco products on the property of nearby businesses and residences, including public streets and sidewalks Ok, is it just me or does that seem a little extreme? Not to mention if you come in smelling like smoke, you could be fired. Ridiculous. I don't even smoke anymore....but I sure want to now. :p

No rainbows...without a little rain. :)

I feel so lonely and out of the loop since moving!! I mean, I'm only 15 minutes out of town...but that's with no phone service...no internet service....nothing.
I can't catch up on Facebook or Blogger or even check my email.
This weekend SUCKED!!! We didn't get to do the Walk a Thon for the homeless, because it was one huge, long thunderstorm all weekend!
I didn't get to go to Benjamin's birthday party...because it was supposed to be at the park, but they changed it to Lauren's house. But I didn't get that text message until later that night....because I have no service!!!! Seriously? Ridiculous.
Seriously.
I was off work yesterday. We only had 5 patients. It was nice to be able to take my boys to school. I stayed up too late reading the Sookie Stackhouse books (True Blood, baby). So I got them up and ready and took them to school. Stopped by Starbucks to get a Skinny Vanilla Latte...yum....drove home and starting reading again. Fell asleep and didn't wake up until TWELVE O'CLOCK in the afternoon!!!
I haven't slept that long in for.ev.vor!!!!
Having the day off and catching up on my sleep, I was feeling it was a good day! Gonna be a good week even!!
wrong.
I picked up Gage from baseball practice...early. He got hit square in the forehead with a baseball. He was going to say something to the guy that threw it, but couldn't think of the guy's name! It came back to him. He had a pretty bad headache all day.
So, I got to set my alarm and wake up every 2 hours, to wake him up last night, to make sure he didn't have a concussion or something.
To add to it, Gage's dad's family was calling me about Billy.
They said he's doing really bad. I asked Gage if he'd heard from him anymore and he said he hadn't in a few days.
Apparently he's now smoking crack. He's stealing from his family, breaking into warehouses....living in hotel rooms with crack heads. What am I supposed to do about all of this? I'm done. I've had him put in jail, for child support. That's all I can do.
Right now I'm to the point where I want him out of my life and out of Gage's life for good. I don't know how much more Gage can take. I know I can't take much more.
Will everything just stop....just for a moment. I can't seem to catch a break, people!
Anywayssssss, the school nurse called from Gage's school today. He still has a headache. So, I had to leave work to pick him up.
I was going to go back to work, but I called my aunt Lisa (who's an RN) and she said it sounded like I needed to take him to the doctor.
Plus I was supposed to have a parent/teacher conference at Zac's school and pick up his report card. I had to call and cancel that...hopefully be able to reschedule that for a later date. So, I can take Gage to the doctor. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I need a vacation. :)

Sooo, that's what has been going on in my world! I gotta go take Gage to the doctor now. I guess I can catch up on my blog reading while waiting at the doctor office!

When it rains, it pours...

And man, oh man....it sure is storming over here in my world. But ya know, I know it's all going to be ok, because everything always works out. And although I know that these two certain men in my life (or not in my life...or just there enough to cause pain in my life) will probably never change, I still know God has a plan. Everything happens for a reason. And while I know all of this, I still can't stop my worrying, wondering, crying. I wonder what else will be piled up on these shoulders....because everyday it's something new. A person can only handle so much before they just break. But, it's ok!! I know I won't be given more than I can handle!! :) I just needed to vent. So much so that I am...for the first time ever....blogging from my phone while waiting for Gage to get out of school :) And you know what?? Blogging on a cell phone sucks! :) Hope you all are having a better week than I am! word. :)