New Obsession

When you came in,

the air went out.

And every shadow

filled up with doubt.

I don't know who you think you are,
but before the night is through.....

I wanna do bad things with you.

Ohhhhh, True Blood.

Ok, so my sister finally got me watching True Blood. And I love it. My new crush is Jason Stackhouse. He's a filthy, dirty, sex fiend. And he's freaking hot. haha.

I'm just on the first season, but it is sooooo good!! Leah has Season 1 and Season 2 on dvd, and I'm recording Season 3. So I can just watch it straight through. :) Good stuff.

Empty glass, last cigarette.....

I told myself that I would quit smoking when I returned home from our trip to Chicago. Here it is, two weeks later....and I'm still smoking. :(
I came home from BWW last night, smelling like smoke. My throat hurting from smoking and talking over all the loud people there. I came in, sat at my computer to play Spider Solitaire [I play it every night before I got to bed, it makes me sleepy:)], and lit my last cigarette out of my pack. And I thought, is there anything good that comes out of smoking? I smell like smoke, I waste a ton of money, I will get wrinkles faster, look older, possibly get lung cancer, mouth cancer, along with many other medical problems that come from smoking. Plus pass on the second hand smoke to my children!
So, I smoked that last cigarette out of my pack. And as of right now, the next day at 5:26 p.m., it was still my last cigarette.
Quitting is so hard. I've done it many times! Once for about 5 years. The last time for about 3 months. But meeting up with friends for a beer, makes me want to have one. In order to take breaks at work, you pretty much have to smoke. I enjoy my smoke breaks with my co worker. And if I were to take breaks with her after quitting, would I be able to resist smoking a cigarette?? Driving to work, I always smoke. Driving home from work, I always smoke. Sitting at my computer, playing Solitaire before bed, I always smoke.
I know it's only been about 16 hours since my last cigarette, but seriously, everywhere I look I see it. Everytime I turn on the tv, someone has a cigarette hanging out of their mouth. Driving my nephew home today, every person I passed had a cigarette hanging out of their mouth.
It's not an attractive thing to see. I've always thought that. When I see people driving with their window cracked, smoke coming out. But seeing it, still makes me want to do it.
I'll probably smoke a cigarette tonight, when I meet up with my friends. I'm going back and forth in my head,"You don't have to!" "But you want to." "You need to quit!" "You don't have to today, though." Oh little angel on my shoulder.....oh, little devil on the other.....we shall see.
We shall see. Am I ready to quit? Hmmmm, we.shall.see.

Back to life. Back to re.al.it.y.

Oh, it was so nice to go to Chicago. It was a much needed vacation.
Of course, upon arriving home, Marianne finds out her poor husband is in the hospital (he's ok now). She has to go straight to the hospital to stay the night with him there.
Leah comes home to find out that the sewage was backed up in her backyard and her toilet overflowed. Jack loved it, of course. He flushes the toilet and says,"Oh look!! A waterfall!! A waterfall!" haha.
I came home to total perfectness. :) Nothing wrong here. That is, until I get in my car Thursday morning to drive to work. My key will not turn. The ignition is jacked. I try for 30 minutes straight to start my damn car and all I got out of that was a blister on my finger.
So, my dad calls around to see how much it's going to be to get fixed. He calls me back. It's going to be $170, that's for the parts and labor. I'm like....awesome! I thought it would be way worse!

My sister gives me a ride to work Thursday morning. My bff picks me up from work.
My bff gives me a ride to work Friday morning. My sister picks me up. It sucks not having a car.
Leah lets me borrow her car some during the weekend. Then gives it to me Sunday night and I've had it since. I'm thinking how much it's going to suck giving her her Durango back when my car gets fixed. It was nice driving that nice car. :)
So, today my dad calls to tell me my car is ready. Oh, and by the way.....it's going to be $330. Whaaaaat??? That's like double what they quoted!!!
Is it just me, or does anyone else think they should've called and told me it was going to be more before proceeding?? Ridiculous.
Hello, single mom here. Luckily, my dad had given me $100 to put towards the amount due. And my awesome sister was sweet enough to pay the difference until I can pay her back.
What would I do without my family? My sister is the best. Letting me borrow her car for almost a whole week, lending me the money, being there for me to comfort me when I'm crying in her car over the whole ordeal. haha.
I'm such a baby.
Thank God for sisters and bffs. :)
But my crappy car is home now. All is well.

If he brings you to it, he'll bring you through it.

Chicago!!!

So, my cousin Jeff got married the last weekend of May. It was in Chicago, where his bride, Natalie, is from. We had the BEST time there!!! I can't wait to go back!



So, when we got to Dallas, we were looking for a hotel to stay in. We stopped by my Aunt Brenda's hotel. And of course, the minute Marianne saw my aunt's new car, she HAD to get a picture in it!

Marianne loves those mini coopers!! haha......





The first thing we did when we landed in Chicago....after dropping our luggage off at the hotel, was get something to eat. We ate a place called Su Casa. If you're ever in Chicago, don't go there. That place SUCKED!!!

Here's a picture of me with my bff and my bcf.....(best friend forever and best cousin forever, haha.) We're doing the super sexy trout pout....you know, girl!



At the rehearsal dinner with Miss Marianne....


After that, we went to an Irish Pub. Me, Marianne, and Ashley had the BEST time that night. Just talking and acting silly. Me and Ashley were always the closest growing up and still are, so I loved that she and my bff hit it off!

Abby, Marianne, me, Ashley, Carrie, and Leah (my seester.)





Me and my bff, drinking our drinks. Yeah, my little bitty glass of Crown and Coke was $7.50. ReeeeDicYouLous!!!!!
Me and Ashley were taking pictures of the silliest faces we could make. This is the only one I could Marianne to take. haha. She's a poser of beauty, not silliness. haha. I love this picture the best, because I was trying so hard to cross my eyes. Ashley said I just looked like a newborn baby who couldn't focus yet. Hilarious.

Marianne and I went to the Aquarium! We had soooo much fun there. I seriously think we could've stayed there all day. But we had to get back, everyone was already mad that we had left them behind. But, geezzz, they all slept til like noon!!

Me and my beautiful sister at my cousin Jeff's wedding!

My aunt Brenda, Leah, Ashley, me, Carrie, and Abby.

This is one of Ashley's many tattoos. This one is my favorite. If you love Bram Stokers Dracula, then you'll love this tattoo!!! Beautiful.

My sister and her friend Janna, getting down, yo. My sister can move!!

The proud parents of the groom! My Uncle Boo and Aunt Linda. :)

Jeff and Natalie. This is what LOVE looks like. He was so handsome, and she was so gorgeous!

Leah, Carrie, Abby, me, Ashley, and my life partner, Marianne.

Me and my cousin Carrie. Poor thing couldn't drink, because she's pregnant. Cutie pie!!

Ashley getting down. Why is it that EVERYONE in my family can dance, but me?? All I want to do is dance!!! Well, dance and look good doing it!!

Ashley also did the Thiller dance, which was the highlight of my night. It was so awesome. She got nervous and forgot a few of the steps because everyone was watching her. haha. But it was still amazing!!

The reception after the wedding was my favorite night in Chicago! It was so nice to hang out with my family and my bff!!

The next day, me, Leah, and Marianne went to go eat at the Billy Goat Tavern.

On the way, I wanted a picture of Leah and Marianne talking, but of course, they caught me taking a picture and stopped to pose. haha. I was like...NO, I want a picture of y'all, just being you!! So, they tried not to pose, but still kinda did. hahaha.

I had to take this picture, because I like the little Facebook "LIKE" sticker in the middle. haha.

You have to walk down these scary, dark stairs to get to the Billy Goat Tavern.

Pretty awesome, huh? :)

You know that old SNL skit they had about the restaurant that said,"Cheesborger, cheesborger....NO Pepsi, COKE!" Yeah, this is the place that skit is based on. They really said that inside. And don't you dare try to order just a regular cheezborger, noooo, you HAVE to order the DOUBLE cheezborger. You seriously have no choice in the matter.

On the way to the museum, we had to take a pit stop. haha. (I won't go there with that story) I just happened to see this store called the Gage and had to take a picture....because my son is Gage. :)

Leah at the museum. being a dork.

Here are some stuffed Hyenas. They scare the crap outta me. But my weirdo bff thinks they're cute. Uhhhh...ok?

When we were waiting for the city bus to take us back to the hotel, I saw these kids and HAD to take a picture!! I'm a huge American Idol fan and was a fan of Lee....second to Casey, of course. And since we were in Lee's hometown of Chicago, I had to take a picture!! I asked their mom first if I could take their picture. She said they hadn't let her take their picture all day. haha.
Kids love me :)

Our last night in Chicago, we went to the Navy Pier!! It was so awesome!!
The plan going is was that EVERYONE was going to ride the ferris wheel, except Marianne because she was scared.

But everyone chickened out. So, my bff...being the bff that she is, rode it with me. It goes around one time and last for seven minutes. The view was perfect! I'm glad my life partner went with me!

At the top of the ferris wheel. Just look at that view!!!

At last, our plane ride home. :( I was sad to leave. But also so ready to get home and see my kiddos. I missed them so much!!!!

So, that was our trip. I only took about 250 pictures, I didn't really want to upload all of them on here. haha. That'd take for.ev.vor!!!

I had the best time with my family and my bff. I think she had a good time and is the best bff, because she loved my crazy family as much as I do.

I can't wait to plan our next trip together! :)

Ew. Stop, please.

Ok, I work at the Endoscopy Center. I wear cute little scrubs with an Endoscopy Center logo. I just want to say that just because I am wearing these scrubs, that does not give you a free card to discuss your hemorroids with me. I don't even know if I spelled hemorroids right. That's because I could care less about learning about it. So, when I walk into the convenience store and come up to the counter with my bottle of water and ask for a pack of cigarettes, just ring up my water and cigarettes. Please don't say,"Oh, you work at the Endo-scopee Center?" "Yes, I do." But that's NOT have you pronounce it!!! And don't say,"Let me ask you a question. How long should I go before calling a doctor about my bleeding hemorroids?" EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!! I am a freaking receptionist!!! I don't know!!! You're making me gag!! I don't see butts! I don't do procedures!! I know nothing!! I just work there!!! This is not something that has just happened once. It's has happened more than a few times. I'm scared to go anywhere in public until I go home and change out of my scrubs!!
Sick. Sick. Disgusting. Really.

I'm just saying.