week end review....

This is my sexy Edward cut out that Marianne bought for me for my 30th birthday. :) I love it. When I first got it, it used to scare me when I walked into a room. Like someone was just standing in my room..haha. But now I'm used to it.

But Friday night, I took a shower and when I got out, Zac had moved Edward right in front of the bathroom door. haha. Scared the crap out of me! :) He thinks he's so funny.

Annnnd, here's my new coffee mug that I told you I would post a picture of!! I love it!! True Blood, baby!! haha, ok, maybe you're not as excited to see it as I am to show it....but you know, I LOVE True Blood!! So I was super excited when I found this!

My new purse, that I also said I would share. :) I just love Hastings. And I love Halloween time!!

Saturday night, Leah's friend, Adrien's daughter had a slumber party at a hotel. We went to hang out for a little bit. Zac with a bubble mustache, after getting out of the hot tub. :)

We had a pretty good time. Had some wine, talked while the kids played.

Sunday I took Gage, Zac, Lucia, and Jack to the park. :)

Gage, watching the kiddos play.

Jack was digging for sharks.......don't ask me!..

Lucia and Zac, playing...but stopped to pose, of course :)

Lucia got a perm Saturday! It is soooo cute. The make up is left over from the slumber party the night before. :)

Last night Gage stayed the night with his friend Andrew and Zac stayed the night with his cousin Anthony. They don't have school today and I had to work, of course...so...must be nice.

Anyways, I survived my very first thunderstorm at my new place....all by myself.

It was pretty scary!! The thunder was constant....like NO breaks in between. My bed was rattling from it. The wind was blowing like crazy and my electricity kept cutting out.

I was like...ok, I'm out in the middle of nowhere...with no phone service....no kids....no power. Kinda scary!!

Did I ever tell you that Beauty IS pregnant!! UGH!!!

I have to buy a dog house ASAP!!

It's about to start getting cold out. I don't want her and the little puppies freezing to death!!!

Yeah...so that's about it. I miss talking to you. Hopefully I'll have internet someday and we can keep in touch more often. :)

Long time, No talk....Part 2

So, when I ended my last blog entry, I said that I had a cry fest last night. Man, it was bad. I cried from about 6:00 until....well...off and on til bedtime. Then when I woke up...then this morning I was fighting the tears, since I had to work with the patients.
All I have to say is,"Thank God for my sister, Leah." I have no idea what I'd do without her. She is not only my sister, but my best friend, and also...my therapist! Me and my boys therapist, apparently. haha.
So, on to the reasoning for my crying spell.
Everyone knows....well, if you know me or read my blog...that I have a CRAZY 7 year old son. I love him more than life itself. Gage and Zac are my world. But as much as I love Zac the Maniac, I have admit that he is sometimes hard to handle. Especially being a single mom with two boys. It's hard sometimes. I've always known that Zac was a little different.
I was talking to a guy I used to work with at the state hospital. Just talking about the weird little things that Zac does.
Well, he and my sister think he may be mildly autistic.
Now when I think about autistic kids, I think about the hard core autistic kids that I worked with at the state hospital. Granted he does do some of the things they did, but just not so extreme.
Zac is extremely smart. He's able to communicate and do things on his own. So, him being autistic never crossed my mind. I thought...ADD or ADHD...or something along those lines.
Anyways, about a month ago, he started twisting his wrist. Like you would if you hurt your wrist. But he does it all the time. Which the RN at the state hospital I was talking to about Zac, said that he was developing OCD behaviors, which is common with autistic children.
I've had this on my mind a lot lately. And I've been wanting to get him an appointment with a specialist, so we can find out for sure what's going on.
Yesterday after me and Zac picked up Gage from baseball practice, we went to get Subway. We went home, sat down at the dinner table, and starting eating. Zac was doing is wrist again and he looked at me and said,"Mom, I have a problem." I was like..."Oh yeah, what's that?"
He said,"I keep doing my wrist like this and I don't know why. I can't stop."
It broke my heart into a million pieces.
Yeah, I've noticed the problem, but when my 7 year old son comes to me, realizing that he's different and he's doing something that is beyond his control......Broke.My.Heart.
So, I do what I always do and I called my sister. She drove right out and had a talk with Zac. Talking about stuff like that is always so easy for her. It's hard for me, just because communication has always been my downfall. And I just cry so easily.
So, thank God for Leah. She went to his room and talked to him about it for about 30 minutes. I was crying the whole time. When they came out of the room I heard him say,"Thank you for talking to me, Leah" She said,"Anytime, buddy. Anytime you feel like you need to talk, you can talk to me." broke.my.heart.
Long story...less long, she talked to him about his doctors appointment and we're going to figure out something to help him. That there's nothing wrong with him, everyone has something that is different and this is his thing. And we're going to do everything we can to help him.
breaks.my.heart.
I love that little guy more than anything. And I just can't stand that this is something that he's obviously been thinking about and worrying about.

Anyways, sorry this was so long. But this is what caused my breakdown last night.
Hopefully when I take him to the specialist we can get something done for my little baby. :)

long time, no talk!

Man, how I've missed my internet at home. :( But I must admit that I have been able to get so much done!!

I just wanted to post something.....I know you all miss me sooooo much! haha.

Here's a picture for you of my little nephew, Jack. Does he has good taste in music, or what???

:)

This is something that my Zackary made with clay. How cute is this? I told him it looked like something from "The Nightmare Before Christmas". :)

Here's a post card Ms. Micaela sent me. ohhhh, I how I love it so! :)

On another note, I had a pretty good weekend. Friday night me and my sister met up with Lauren (my cousin's wife). We went to Parkway and had some drinks, good conversation.

Zac was at his dad's and Gage went to a Rider football game with a friend of his, then stayed the night.

Saturday, I thought me and my boys were going to hang out. But Gage decided he wanted to stay at his friend Travis's house. Zac decided he was going to stay the night with his cousin Anthony.

Uhhh...ok.

"Lonely.....I am so lonely....I have nobody...to call my owwwwnnn."

Nah, it was alright. I dropped them off at their little places at 6, then went and walked around Hastings. I found a cute little purse, it has a hotel and a man and says 'Psycho'...good movie. :) Ohhh how I love this Halloween time of year!!! And I also got a new coffee mug!! It says."One drop is all you need" and has a V behind it. I'll post pictures of my new two items later. :)

Oh...and the coffee mug...it's True Blood. Oh yeah, baby!!

So, after Hastings, I went to wash my car. I was driving past an elementary school and saw a little boy sitting cross legged out front with a back pack on.

I couldn't help but think....awwww, what if his mom forgot to pick him up from school yesterday! haha. But surely not. It was kind of a sad thought though. ;)

Last night I got up around midnight to go pee and I saw a freaking scorpion on my floor!! Right where I walked past to turn on the light...so close. I so could've stepped on it!!! It took a long time to fall asleep after that. I had to check my sheets and my bedroom floor....ugh. Country life. ;)

Last night was also a cry fest for me. But that's another long story that I just don't have time for right now....

So, maybe I'll fill you in on that next time I blog.....if I ever get internet :(

You go....me!

Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since my last cigarette..



I'm just sayin'.....





woot woot, Stephanie :)

Fill in the Blank Friday

Here are today's blanks!

If you want to play along, fill in the blanks on your blog and then link back here.

1. True happiness is being a mom.

2. The most surreal moment of my life was giving birth to my boys! :)

3. My favorite texture is hmmm, I don't know. I've never really thought about it .

4. My signature color is probably green. I wear green a lot. It's my favorite color :)

5. My signature style is comfortable. That's all I care about....comfort.

6. If I could choose one store to spend my life savings at, it would be seriously? Why would I spend my life savings at a store?? I wouldn't. What about college for my kids? A new house? A new car? A store? Uh, ok.....I'll play along....I guess maybe....Target? haha. I'm not much of a shopper, I don't know.

7. My best thing about autumn is EVERYTHING! Weather, movies, family time, colors, cuddling. It's the best.