Today....

Today, I'm in a good mood. I love when I'm in a good mood. The last couple weeks have been hard. But we're starting Zac on a new medication (and I'm hopeful), I'm caught up on all my bills (well, I will be tomorrow..payday), and I'm feeling good. :)

Today, at work, I received a check in the mail payments for .28 cents. Yes, someone wrote us a check for 28 cents. Wow. Really?

Today, I checked in a little old 80-something woman. She and her cute little 80-something husband were adorable.
It made me think.....
right now, I love being alone. I have my boys, that's all I need. That's all I have time for, really. But what about when they're grown and moved out and dating and don't need their mom anymore...and, and, and....what about then?
Will I be lonely? Or will I enjoy living alone for the first time in my entire life (as in no kids, no husband, no parents) and doing what I want, when I want?
I wonder....

Today, it is Cinco de Mayo.
I think I should celebrate by drinking a nice, cold beer tonight. :)

Today, a guy walked into my work wearing the cologne he used to wear (when we first started "dating"). I loved that smell. I remember lying in bed and being able to smell his cologne on my pillows long after he was gone.
That lingering smell always made me smile and smelling it today brought back a rush of memories.
Isn't it funny how a smell can do that to you?
Bittersweet.
bittersweet.

Today, it is beautiful out! I may have to take my kiddos to the park! :)

True Story, My Friend.

I checked in a patient today that was 50+ years old.

He was wearing a Marvel t-shirt.

I thought....wow, that's....odd.

Then.....

As he was signing his paperwork, I noticed he was wearing a Superman RING!

I'm not kidding.

Then, as I put on his ID bracelet......I noticed he was also wearing a Mickey Mouse watch!!

WTF?!?

This guy was married. Weirdo.

As he walked away.....dude, I'm not joking...he was wearing some kind of Marvel jacket....it was either Green Lantern or The Incredible Hulk...or something.

I don't know.

Crazy, man. Crazy.

What if?

What if you were a food?
What food would you be and why?

This is seriously a question that was asked on an online application Gage filled out yesterday. What the hell?

I told Gage I'd be chocolate because I'm so sweet.
He would be a lemon because he's a sour puss. ha!

So I asked the girls at work what they would be. Needless to say it was all dirty answers...

What about you? What food would you be?

Day Twelve: Whatever Tickles Your Fancy

Day Twelve of the 30 Day Challenge:

Whatever tickles your fancy.

Today I can write about whatever my little heart desires.

So, let's talk about being an aquarius, shall we? haha. I am an aquarius! I received an email from someone once that had each sign and certain traits that the people of each sign have. I think it's pretty interesting. :)

So, I was checking out an astrology website and I took out the parts that remind me a lot of myself.

possess strong and attractive personalities, fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient (I'd say I have a pretty strong personality and I'm definitely shy and very sensitive)

strong willed and forceful in their different ways and have strong convictions, though as they seek truth above all things

can see the validity of the argument, even if they do not accept it themselves

they obey the Quaker exhortation to "Be open to truth, from whatever source it comes," and are prepared to learn from everyone

both types are humane, frank, serious minded, genial, refined, sometimes ethereal, and idealistic, though this last quality is tempered with a sensible practicality

are quick, active and persevering without being self-assertive, and express themselves with reason, moderation and sometimes, a dry humor (dry humor? who me?)

nearly always intelligent, concise, clear and logical. many are strongly imaginative and psychically intuitive

both types need to retire from the world at times and to become temporary loners (yep, sounds a lot like me!)

in company they are fiercely independent, refusing to follow the crowd (gurrrl, you know I'm no follower!! :) I'm my own person, yo!)

dislike interference by others, however helpfully intended, and will accept it only on their own terms

normally have good taste in drama, music and art (Uhhh, I like to think so, anyways!)

neither type makes friends easily; sometimes appear to condescend to others and take too little trouble to cultivate the acquaintance of people who do not particularly appeal to them (I guess that's a bad trait, but I can totally see myself there. It takes a lot to get to know me and if I get a certain feeling about you, it takes a lot to change that feeling.)

do not give themselves easily - perhaps their judgment of human nature is too good for that - and are sometimes accounted cold. (I've been told a time or two that I'm cold. haha. I'm really NOT! i swear!)

once they decide that someone is worthy of their friendship or love, they can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them and will themselves become tenacious friends or lovers, ready to sacrifice everything for their partners and be faithful to them for life (that's definitely true with me. i guess i make people prove themselves before letting them. But once they're in...they're in, yo! man, aquarians are bitches. don't judge, I can't help what sign I am. :))

sometimes disappointed emotionally because their own high personal ideals cause them to demand more of others than is reasonable (that's definitely true. I always seem to expect too much from people. :/)

if they are deceived their anger is terrible

if disillusioned, they do not forgive. (I've been working on the forgiving part. I'd say I can forgive....can I forget? no. never.)

among the faults to which they are liable are fanatical eccentricity, wayward egotism, excessive detachment and an inclination to retreat from life and society, and a tendency to be extremely dogmatic in their opinions (like I've said before, I go through times when I want to be left alone, no contact with anyone. just be left alone with my thoughts.)

may express a lack of integrity in broken promises, secretiveness or cunning (I'm definitely secretive. my mom used to get so mad at me for being so secretive and not talking to her about things. i keep a lot of stuff to myself.)

simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of the Aquarian. This can also reveal itself in a sustained hatred for enemies that is capable of enlarging itself into a misanthropy toward the whole of mankind.

Interesting. Very interesting. :)

Or maybe it is....just to me.

Excuse me...Mr. Pattinson?

Would you like me to replace your hand with mine?

I will surely do so, just for you! :)

Hello!!

Oh what tangled webs we weave....

....when first we practice to deceive.

A woman's intuition is an amazing thing. If only they would listen to it more often. But a woman wants proof. And goes looking for it, and searching for it. Why all the heartache? Why all the wondering? Why do they question themselves? If they feel it with that strong intuition, that only a woman has....then it's probably the truth.

It has taken me a long time to learn to trust myself and my gut feelings. Deceiving from another, to get want they want. Lies. Hidden truths...which I also consider lies.

But sometimes no matter how much you feel it, you just don't want to believe it. So, you go on lying to yourself. But still looking for the truth, that you know is there.

And that, ol' son of mine....is why I have chosen to stay single. There's just not many people out there that you can trust anymore.

:)

Lucinda Williams

Are you alright?
All of the sudden you went away.
Are you alright?
I hope you come back around someday.
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I haven't seen you in a real long time.
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Could you give me some kind of sign.
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I looked around me and you were gone.
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I feel like there must be something wrong.
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'Cause it seems like you disappeared.
Are you alright?
'Cause I been feeling a little scared.
Are you alright?

Are you sleeping through the night?
Do you have someone to hold you tight?
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Do you have someone to hug and kiss you,
Hug and kiss you, hug and kiss you?
Are you alright?

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I wish you'd give me a little clue.
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Is there something you wanna say?
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Just tell me that you're okay.
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'Cause you took off without a word.
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You flew away like a little bird.
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Is there anything I can do?
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'Cause I need to hear from you.
Are you alright?

Are you sleeping through the night?
Do you have someone to hold you tight?
Do you have someone to hang out with?
Do you have someone to hug and kiss you?
Hug and kiss you, hug and kiss you?
Are you alright?

Are you alright?
Are you alright?
Hey...