I'm turning into my mother.
I always said I wouldn't.
But don't we all say that?
I used to get so mad at my mom for never getting out of the house. She would say,"I feel gross, I have nothing to wear, I just want to sit and relax."
That's me, now.
I cannot rememer the last time I made myself get out of the house....I mean, childless, to hang out with friends.
I was supposed to go to a friends big event last night and I didn't. I had planned on it all day, and at the last minute, I just didn't. I had nothing to wear. I was tired. I felt bad, knowing I wanted to be there, knowing I said I would be, but I couldn't make myself get up and get ready.
I cannot remember the last time I put on make up.
Ok, I don't really wear make up anyways, but I used to wear mascara and eyeliner! I don't even do that anymore.
Look at my Thanksgiving pictures.
Tonight is my friend Angela's 30th birthday. Another plan that I have made for tonight. I really want to go. I have all intentions of going.
I tell myself I'm going to take a shower, get dressed, put on some make up, feel good, get out and drink a beer. Enjoy some adult time.
But maybe I'm just doomed to be my mother.
A loner.
A hermit.
A recluse.
I feel myself not wanting to be that....but yet, I am.
Kinda depressing, right?
So, my apologies go to Ms. Marianne and Ms. Micaela. I am so sorry I missed such an amazing night.
3 comments:
Your not depressing at all!
As I type out this comment - I'm sitting in my pj's,headband in my head,barefoot,no makeup and eating thanksgiving leftovers.
When you become a mother your priorities change whether you like it or not. Especially if your a great mom - which you are : )
I know how hard it is to run around after your child,work,help them out with their homework,cook,keep the house tidy and all the other stuff we do! My hubby works a lot so I run around with Miguelito all the time. I can just imagine how much work you do with your two boys : )
Therefore it comes very easy to just want to relax and stay home and do nothing when you actually have a day off and don't have to go out.
Don't feel bad or depressed, your boys know what a great mom you are and how much you sacrifice for them and they love you dearly : )
Take care sweet girl and hope you got to go and celebrate your friends b-day : )
xo
Awwww, thank you, Karina. You made me feel better! haha.
I was never one to go out much. I got pregnant when I was 17, so I went straight to being a mother...but then after I got divorced, I went a little crazy and went out all the time.
Now, I'm just settled again :)
It's just a mother thing, I guess.
Thank you for your sweet comment!!
are you kidding? you work so hard AND have two gorgeous happy boys to show for it.
you deserve every minute of quiet that you can get. we all have times in our life when we want to slow it down and other times when we want to be outside and with others. enjoy your quiet time and know that your friends will be there for you when you are ready to party!
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