Cigarette, please. :D

You know, it has been 55 days since my last cigarette. And if I'm being honest, I've wanted a cigarette just about every one of those 55 days. Whether it be the worrying over Zac and his doctor appointments, or the stresses of having a 14 year old son that is....well, acting like a typical 14 year old boy. Ya know, it could be I saw a woman smoking on tv and it made me want one. Point is!.......that I still want to smoke. I have dreams that I light a cigarette and take two drags and love it...then I'm just disappointed in myself for smoking after doing so well for so long! Ok, I got off track. I'm good at that. On with my story.....yesterday made me want to start smoking again. NOTHING makes me want to do something more, than when someone tells me I can't do it. Ridiculous!!! Them...NOT me! Here are some of the rules: No smoking in parking lots and/or driveways that are used by (my place of business) in any (mpob) vehicles Vehicles on property that is owned, leased or used by (mpob) All property, sidewalks and streets that are adjacent to (mpob) owned or leased property they want us to hand out informational cards to give employees/patients who are observed smoking on work property. Have to inform patients that leaving the campus while admitted will not be allowed. ....leaving campus while admitted is classified as leaving “against medical advice.” If you carpool to/from work, attend training classes or other work-related functions may not smoke in the vehicle with other employees present Not allowed to leave the workplace while “on the clock" hourly employees who leave work property(to smoke) must clock-out upon leaving and clock-in upon returning. Must refrain from using tobacco products on the property of nearby businesses and residences, including public streets and sidewalks Ok, is it just me or does that seem a little extreme? Not to mention if you come in smelling like smoke, you could be fired. Ridiculous. I don't even smoke anymore....but I sure want to now. :p