Quick weekend....

My new favorite channel is the ID Channel.
I love crime shows. LOVE them.
My new favorite is "Who the [bleep] did I marry?"



It's so sad. But so funny at the same time. It's amazing what you will go through and what you will turn a blind eye to...when you're "in love".
While I was laying in Lucia's bed, watching the ID Channel (why do I pay rent for a house I don't stay in??), Jack came running in to show me his hair.
His sissy did it for him. Isn't it cute??
haha.


I'm going to go spend some time outside now. The weather is beautiful!! I love it!
I hope the winter is gone for good! :) (yeah right)

Saturday Night.

Tonight, Gage and his girlfriend, Melissa, baby sat Lucia and Jack while me and Leah went to a movie.
Lucia had a good time with them.
She painted Gage and Melissa's nails and did their hair up in bows. :)
Gage painted Lucia and Jack's nails, too.

What movie did I see, you ask? Well, "Blue Valentine" of course.
Can I just say that Ryan Gosling and Michelle Williams were wonderful in this movie.


They played the parts perfect. My heart ached watching it.
I could really relate to Michelle's role and it was heartbreaking.
To be in a marriage that just...isn't. To get to that point where you just can't take it anymore. For him to touch you, makes you cringe. To feel like you have to "be with" him, because you're married and feel that it's your "duty".
To want so bad to make it work, because you know that's what they want...but you're just to the point where you can't. You just can't.
I've been there.
And Ryan's part. I saw him in his part, too.
The constant need for attention. The child-like behavior. The thinking that they're so funny, when really...they're just annoying.
Also the sadness of seeing them try so hard, but that trying so hard only pushes you further away.

It's just a perfect story.

Dean (Ryan Gosling):
I feel like men are more romantic than women. When we get married we marry, like, one girl, 'cause we're resistant the whole way until we meet one girl and we think I'd be an idiot if I didn't marry this girl she's so great. But it seems like girls get to a place where they just kinda pick the best option... 'Oh he's got a good job.' I mean they spend their whole life looking for Prince Charming and then they marry the guy who's got a good job and is gonna stick around.

Finally....

I am so excited that "Blue Valentine" FINALLY came here!! I'm going to see it tomorrow, ferrr surrre, baby!
I will come armed with tons of tissue, because I KNOW I'm going to need it. I've been waiting for this movie to play here, but I thought I was going to have to wait for it to come out on DVD!
Yay!


I LOVE RYAN GOSLING!!!! In EVERYthing he does. I have not seen a movie of his that I don't love. He's brilliant.


Know who else I love? This is a fairly new crush.
Sam Rockwell. I've always loved him in everything. He's awesome.
But I kinda have a crush on him now. :)

Have you seen "Conviction"? It was wonderful! Hilary Swank is another one that is awesome in everything.

I just love movies.
AND BOOKS! I'm reading "Water for Elephants". It took me a bit to get into it, but now I can't put it down!!
I guess I just love escaping from reality. :)

Speaking of reality, Zac's appointment went well yesterday.
The doctor seems to think that medication for his anxiety would benefit him more than ADHD medication. He thinks that the anxiety is causing his inability to focus.
So, last night we started Lexapro. We're ready to see how this will work for him.
Hopefully it helps the anxiety and hopefully it will also help him with his little ticks (blinking, hand movements).

We shall see.
I'm so glad it's the weekend. I haven't been able to get much sleep, since the weather has been bad. Staying the night at my sister's to be closer to work...I stay up later. Watching movies, hanging with the kids. Ugh! I need my 8 hours!!!
Speaking of watching movies, we watched "Paranormal Activity 2". It wasn't as good as the first one, but I liked it. Zac, Lucia, and Jack were all line up on the couch with a blanket pulled up over their noses, watching with us. They were scared, but unable to tear their eyes away. :)
Good stuff.

Pretty sky

The drive home yesterday was so pretty :)
I tried to capture it....with my crap cell phone. haha.

It didn't really work. But see how the the clouds have lines in them? A ray of sunshine was coming through every opening.
And it was so freaking pretty.

Guess you had to be there......
:)
Your loss.

Oh...by the way...

More snow today. Lovely. Although it's really not as bad as last week. At least it's just snow, not snow on top of ice. So, remember me telling you about the man that was looking in my sister's window in broad daylight last week? Well, the night before last, her dog was barking and barking at 2:30 in the morning. She looked out the back door, didn't see anything. So, she went to look out the kitchen window...and there was a man standing beside her car. He crouched down and they had a staring contest. Finally he ducked down and took off. Scary. This has been happening a little too often. Last night we were watching a movie and the dog started barking. I jerked my head around and stared at Leah, wide eyed....she just laughed at me. I was just a little bit scared. :) I guess it was nothing though, because the dog stopped barking and we didn't hear either one of our alarms on our cars go off. Brenda at work said she should call the police department, just to tell them about the past couple weeks, so they could patrol the neighborhood. I concur. I'm so glad that I made it to work today. I cannot handle any more time off. Plus all my appointments and Zac's appointments are taking time out of work too! Zac's doctor appointments alone are breaking me, money wise!! Monday he had an eye appointment. Today he has a dentist appointment. Tomorrow we have his appointment to see about medication for his anxiety/ADHD. Therapy every 2 weeks. UGH! But I really can't complain because the therapy really seems to be helping! Although his wrist twisting has seemed to stop, he is now blinking non-stop. Which is why he had an eye appointment on Monday, but his vision is fine. I guess it's a new thing. Weird. His next therapy session is Tuesday, so we'll talk about his new tick. Friday I have to go to court for the 5 hundred millionth time! UGH! What is the point?? Five years and $23,000 + of back child support....there is really no reason. Oh well, at least I can say I'm doing my part. blah. The the week after next, I'm FINALLY taking Beauty to get her fixed. I can't handle puppies again!! I wanted to keep them all!! And I don't even like animals all that much :) Soooo, I seem to have accomplished the quitting smoking. I have not had a cigarette since September...something. My new goal, give up Dr Pepper. If you know me, you know this is REALLY going to be a challenge. More so than cigarettes I think. I started smoking when I was 15. I started my addiction to Dr Pepper at age 11. All I drink all day, everyday is Dr Pepper. I'm on day 2 of no Dr Pepper. I had a major head ache yesterday, but today I'm doing ok. :) Hopefully I can do this!